life made simple______

mummy's birthday

2009-06-21T00:42:00.002+08:00

没有妈咪的第124天

妈咪的生日.

It's mummy's birthday today. haven had a proper birthday celebration before she left us for a better world, a place that she wont feel anymore pain. I've regretted that i didnt find time to celebrate the last few birthdays of hers. i'm sorry mum. mum, hope u are having a grand birthday party wherever u r now. I'm sure all of us here will be wishing u all the best. i love you.

It's a little too late to regret now. :(

没有妈咪的第33天

2008-12-11T00:32:00.002+08:00

阿咪,我很想你!!!

没有妈咪的第八天

2008-11-16T14:21:00.001+08:00

today's sunday, a week after mummy left. we are doing quite alright but i still feel dad's a little not right. maybe cos he has been keeping everything to himself. friday night my relatives came over to stay over at my place cos sat is tou qi. it's said that mummy will come home to take a look at home and ppl who has fate with her or ppl who she wans to see will be able to see her. sat morning, da jiu says that he saw her, and i believe that she came back. i heard da jiu talking when he's slping. er jiu says he dreamt of her. dad too dreamt that she held his hand. i believe she's back but didn't wanted to alert us. she'll just see us from a distance. i suppose she alerted da jiu and er jiu cos they wasn't able to make it to see her the last time. i rmb i placed mummy's phone straight on my desk, but it was slanted in the morning. mummy, why didn't you talk to me? i miss you..

when to ju shi lin this morning to do up some administration stuff to put a shen zhu pai there. everything went on smoothly, guess is mummy's arrangement. the temple only put up shen zhu pai every last sunday of the month. mummy's 47th day is on the last sat of dec so just nice the next day she'll sit up der. no need to wait or wad.

went over to ah ma's place as the usual practise as mummy was ard. everyone is fine. i bet mummy's happy to see that.

DEAR U

我们都很想念你

在你离开以后这些日子里

以往的每次想起

眼泪都象汗水一样的决堤

你临走前的那些日子

我们每一个人都尽量的掩饰

不让你看到伤心的样子

心里的痛苦永远无法解释

看着疾病不断侵蚀你的生命

多想让时间暂停

让你再感受多点温馨

你松开了双手

带走你的温柔

连说声再见的时间也(都)没有

只希望你能快乐永远无忧

一切(所有)的幸福都在你左右

你松开了双手

带走你的温柔

我们还会相亲相爱到永久

遇到风雨的时候

紧握彼此的(双)手

你的爱已足够成为我们坚强的理由

最后的那段时间里

我一回家就会去看看你

多想用自己全部的能力

换你坚强生还的勇气

妹妹经常在夜里

千万次地呼唤妈妈的名字

或许她还不曾想起

最爱她的你已经不在这里

mummy, i told ya that i'll win a tournament for you and i promise i'll try my best in this tournament. i know you wont blame me for being unable to do it cos you always told me to jing li jiu hao. but i want you to know you've got a son who can do it! i want you to be proud of me! (: love ya... (:

没有妈咪的第五天

2008-11-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

today's the fifth day mummy left her physical self, but i believe she's always with me. i talked to her every night, and yesterday night is the last night i can talk to her body. i told mummy, 'mummy, you can leave peacefully. i will be strong, i'll be the pillar of the family. i will look after my brother and daddy. and also ah ma and ah gong. mum, pls give me the courage tmr (which is today).'

i know i cannot cry. i cannot show how sad i was to send her off. cos if i do so, it'll be a domino effect. and i did it. i can feel the courage mummy had when she was fighting the disease. i'm sad, but my tears didn't drop. i can even smile to mummy. (: i love you mummy, i miss you.

sent mummy off at ard 3pm and the cremation starts at 345pm. we stand at the viewing gallery, sounds of the tears and all didnt overwhelm me. i stood strong, chanting the wang sheng zhou. praying for mummy to go into the desired type of world. a world without sufferings. she had suffered enough.

sent her to Ju Shi Lin for her stay here for the next 44 days. at there, shifu will pray for her daily and she'll soon be free from all. (: came back home and started all the tidying and stuff, waiting for mummy to come home on sat morning cos it's the tou qi. (first 7 days) i hope i've fate with her and will see her. i want to affirm her tat i'll be strong to take up the family. She always have faith in me i know.

没有妈咪的第四天

2008-11-12T05:01:00.001+08:00

today is the fourth day that you left. till now i still feel regretful for all the things that i didn't do for you. i really miss you, i know dad is too. he's always with a smile cos he doesn't want us to worry and also he wants you to be able to leave in peace. he knows that you doesn't wish to see us cry and i knew that too. i tried.

i so wanted to take a picture with you when you're back at hm then. but i know i can't, cos you won't want to see youself in that condition. i hope the time i spent with you thru your last few months of your journey makes you happy. i'm glad tat i did though i wish i had more time.

everytime i go back home to take a shower or something, the first thing i saw was the bed. the bed which you passed away on. i would walk over to the bed. and in me, you're like still there. pictures of you talking to me like before. i would even smell the pillow that u've used, ur smell is still der. mummy i really really miss you badly. i so want you back, but i can't.. )':

i know i've to be strong, and i promised you that i will to take up this family and ah gong ah ma. i'm trying. but i'm so scared that i would break down during the day of cremation. everytime i walk near the coffin, i so wish i could see you again, but it's totally covered. i understand dad doesn't want to hurt you even you've left. so i rather tat i can't see you physically cos i know you're with me mentally. i can 'see' you thru anything.

YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MY HEART. LOVE YA LOTS!

没有你的第320天... 晴

2008-11-07T09:57:00.002+08:00

this period had been stressful. ppl might think, 'wah, so good ar, dont need to go back camp, shiok'. but wadever la, u think it's really that shiok? i wish i can jolly well change my situation with ppl and see mum gets well man. wth. i've been staying home the whole day, trying to spend more time with mum. she's in such a poor thing condition. i didnt see her like this before. pls be strong.

mummy i love you..

2008-10-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

i'm so scared. i dont know wad to do... i knew of the situation long ago but i just kept running, running away... i dont want to lose her, i cant bare to do so. i regretted for not being with her when she tries to spent more time with me. i really regretted. how i wish i can talk to her and accompany her to holidays and etc.. i missed the times when she's well. sorry... i didnt did tat on purpose, louis vuitton handbags i just dont know why i kept running. at times i knew u long to be accompanied by me but i choose to go out. i dont want to think of the bad things.

now u are unable to move about, to watch me bowl, to eat dinner with me, etc. i cant help tearing when i tht of how i treated you before. i really very very afraid that you would leave me just like tat.

every single thing in the house reminds me of u. how you look like now. u looked like you are suffering, and it hurts me. really. i tried to be strong. i had to put on a brave front. i cant let u worry about me.

god, pls. i beg you, dont take her away from me. i want to make up for wad i havent done the past few years. i want to bring her around, hug her and even kiss her. i want her to see me get married and stuff.. pls pls pls, pls give me this chance... I love you...

back to action

2008-06-22T11:13:00.001+08:00

yo peeps!!! thanks for visiting http://zhebin.blogspot.com. haha! had been busy and lazy to update so ya... ;p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!!!

it's another year... 22+1... haha!! haven't been talking to jie much either. SORRY.. hehe... met jie for dinner/supper*, (*delete accordingly) yesterday... haha, i ordered like i haven't been eating for ages. oh ya, attending the meal was sly, ian, jaclyn, me and jie. Ian is full of crap yesterday, using his the other head and think. haha!chanel handbags went to east coast after the meal and sat at the beach for like 3 hrs +? getting emo... can't help thinking of her again. she hasn't replied a single msg i've sent, though not alot. dreamt of her, woke up and i was like f***, it's just a dream! arg!!

had been facebook-ing these days. too bored that i'm addicted to friends for sale application.. haha!

mun ting - hey!!! thanks for visiting.. haha! where's my t-shirt!! haha!! in case u forgot, the one you bought for me for my bday.. hehe!! ;p how have ya been... wanna join us for dinner some day? hehe!

i miss u...

2008-03-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

i miss u

haven been able to get you off my mind. put myself into work but still, u remain in my mind. i don't have the intention of forgetting you, not even the times we had together. i dunno why you can forget about those days so fast and get on.

i was reading through those msges you've sent me before, i haven delete any one of that. i really miss you. though u're not by my side, i still care. i hope u r really doing well now, and you would find your mr. right. i'm just a passer-by....

take care
still love you...

distance

2008-02-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

distance, factor of love?

distance is a factor of love, but it's nv negative. if love is positive, distance equals positive as it'll make both party misses each other more. missing not equal to sticking. if one love the other, he/she will still love the other even if they are distance apart as distance makes him/her misses the other more. if one feeling changes when distance sets in, love is negative, a need for an accompany is positive.

so is it love or a need for a company?

hotel november yankee!!

2008-02-10T11:13:00.001+08:00

Hotel November Yankee!!!!

it's the 4th day of the lunar new year already.. happy new yr to all!!! wishing all a smooth sailing year ahead. Stay happy and healthy always! (:

had our tradition bai nian session yesterday... we started off from kenneth's house followed by nic's house eddie's house my house and ended at kok house. long day though but fun. chanel handbags we had like 20 over ppl? haha! we use to travel to one - two places when we were in sec sch cos take bus to alot of places is kinda mafan. slowly we grew, our group gets bigger each year cos ppl are getting attached and till last yr, we had 2 cars? and some of us still need to take cab. but this year, it's diff!! we had like 5-6 cars.. wahaha!! quite shiok... though i should be one of the first to have license. haiz...

the group grew from 14-16 ppl to today 24 ppl? almost all are attached. i suppose we'll have nicholas gf joining us next yr. i'm still hanging down here. tht i would have but it's not meant to be. it's already the 4th day and i've nt heard from u... am i really that detestable that u can't even start talking to me? nvm, i've already expected that. valentines' day is coming. wad a day! freak! still wondering why you are doing this to me. i really dunno how much more i can take. it's so hard to love...

forever 21

2008-02-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

i'm 21!!! R21! wahaha!! i'm nt that she k!! hahah! i'm getting old...

had a few wishes, but i'm keeping it a secret.... cos i want it to happen.. wahaha...

anyway, had my 21st bday at costa sands pasir ris... firstly i want to thank a very impt person that make this party a success, she's non other den my dear JIE!! thank you jie for spending so much time for me... i really appreciate all that you've done. it won't be able to start the chalet without u! thanks alot!! (:

i oso want to thank my fellow frens who fork out some time to come attend the party.. thanks for spending such wonderful time with me.. thanks for the pressie too... <3...

though i really wish u could be at the party but i knew it won't happen. i tht u would wish me, but i was just deceiving myself. i wasn't even in your thoughts. just a simple msg from u would be sufficient. i was hoping that u would just drop me a msg, just 2 words.. that would be the best birthday present... must u be that mean to me??? i'm trying to be fren with u, isn't that u're asking for??? i did wad u wan, i let u have ur way, but still.... the night before i was waiting, keeping myself awake at 12, hoping that one of the msg that came in was from u... seems like i'm just a passer-by in ur life, make no significant impact. not even acquaintance?? still, not a single word from u.... tat's the most disheartening thing for my 21st...

new year...

2008-01-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

it's the start of the year... i dunno how to put it. i dun feel the excitement for countdown and wad so ever.. it's the same for christmas. things hasn't been going well for me. maybe it's karma.

baby, i hope u are really fine and all. i dunno how much more i can do. i'm trying my best to salvage this. i dun wish to let this end like this. u can say that there isn't a start in the first place. is that wad u really feel. all this while i mean nothing? i'm so afraid. i really am. i dun wan to lose u though, but i can't force you to feel the same. i really miss u that much, but i hope u don't miss me like how i miss you, cos i know the feeling is terrible to miss one. baby, i really don't wish we end u like this. pls tell me u r willing to give me a second chance, pls tell me that things are gonna be fine. and most imptly, pls tell me u r fine. (: love ya baby..

hello peeps

2007-11-11T15:03:00.001+08:00

hello peeps!! long time no see. it has been declared dead for like quite sometime. hehe! already 4 months plus in the army and i still not accepting it. every sunday is still giving me the sunday syndrome. i dun want an army life. the only thing i am looking forward to now is the nationals and JIE!! nationals starting next week, but i'm not sure if i'm prepared for it. chanel handbags something very bad about army is that it causes me to lose touch with my bowling techniques. every weekend i try to get back the feel, but it is gone when weekdays comes. i just told coach that i'll drill a special agent for nationals and he wants me to get a scout. hmm.. shall think of it if my parents were to sponsor, den i'll get it. ehehe.

jie is coming back, but she'll miss the nationals. nvm shall try to win something and get something for her... miss ya jie...

5th week...

2007-08-18T11:08:00.000+08:00

yo dudes!!! sorry for not posting for so long.. weekends have been rather important to me so dun have much time to do posting. hehe. alright, i've survived 5 weeks in bloody tekong. 4 more weeks to go. just came back from field camp and it's an irritating experience. just imagine urself not bathing for like 6 days and also sweating around. omg. we all stinks. we dig shell scrap which is a hole like knee level deep and 2m long. took like 3 hours to finish lo. haha! some kuku fell into the hole cos it's like damn dark la! haha!

next week i tink i'll be handling hand grenade. POP!!!! i want to get out soon!!

FUCK!

2007-07-29T15:24:00.000+08:00

fFUCK!! i'm booking in today!! hate it! irritating!! i want to be PM and abolish this stupid national service. arg!! pardon me for so vulgar today. argg...

days at the BMTC pass super slowly, can't help cursing and swearing at that stupid place. one more week and i'm going field camp. can't imagine myself rolling around in the mud and getting super dirty and can't shower for like 6 days! argg...

I HATE MY LIFE NOW!! SAVE ME!!

last day

2007-07-12T11:36:00.001+08:00

end of chapter

today is the last day i'll be able to enjoy myself, after which, i'll be spending 2 weeks in tekong camp. rather reluctant to lose all the freedom, but i'm expecting to learn lots of things during national service. had already packed up my stuffs, replica watches but still thinking whether i shld be bringing my ipod along. it's not a ban item but i'm afraid of it being stolen. (:

went kbox with yq, liyu and xiao si yesterday. time passes damn fast la, time's up before we even notice it. yq shared quite a bit of his ns life with me and i tink it has inspired me to chiong. but still have to depends on the situation.

saw the asian schools results, and bern did quite well! go bern! (: i was trying to watch spiderman 3 yesterday, but it seems that i'm not fated to watch it. cos the disc hang on me halfway thru the show. so sad. ): mayb it's not meant to be... there's nthing for me to do today... just enjoy my stay at home.

be strong

2007-07-11T12:36:00.001+08:00

be strong

today is my 2nd last day at home before my enlistment. suddenly got a suan suan feeling, a feeling that i will miss the life of a civilian, the life at home, the environment and everything else that i've been having all these years. ns is a big change, going thru' might be tough sometimes but it's a good experience i suppose.

i'll be enlisting in 2 days time and mum will be going for her ops on sat. for those who dunno what illness my mum is going thru or rather had been going thru, it's complicated. in short, it's cancer. and recently the liver has been infected or something liddat. so this sat ops will be putting a pipe in and doing kimo. it's painful i know. i won't be around with her. actually i've found out of her illness quite sometime ago, and i dun wan or rather dunno how to face it. i've been avoiding it. always trying to get out of it. and now, i feel rather guilty. chanel handbags just hope she'll get thru this time round. god pls bless her... i've told ppl that i've attended the poly graduation ceremony becos of my parents, and someone told me, "ya cos your parents scared that they might not have another chance." wad actually this person means is that i might not have the capability to get into university and graduate from der. but inside me i was thinking, 'yes they are scared, or rather she is scared that she might not have the chance to see me graduate from uni, not becos i can't get in or something, but she might not live to see it." )': haiz. i didn't realised i'm so concern about it till now. ):

i'm going to training later at 4. it'll be my last training before ns. and i hope after the 2 weeks in camp will make me forget about all the bad habits in my bowling and start afresh. get everything in place and so on. i will! kbox after training. haha! had been k box-ing quite often. but this time is for yq cos i wasn't able to attend his bday party. so sorry bro. gonna pack up everything by tonight.

please protect her thru this critical moments.. i'm willing to do anything...

men's talk

2007-07-11T02:16:00.001+08:00

men's talk

it's quite a busy day today. i met up with ppl that i've nt met for quite sometime. woke up like how early today, at least earlier den usual, and went to wheelock place to get my phone repaired. there's something wrong with the handset that i can't hear the other party. with the tht that by getting there early, i do not need to wait. but.... i reached there and saw the shocking number. there was 39 ppl infront of me. omg!! the estimated waiting time was like 70 mins. so i ended up sitting der for abt 2 hrs.

just nice, i was meeting my ah bu, ms ang liyu, to get yq's pressie. so she went der to meet me instead. (: we shop like how fast la. got the pressie in 1/2 hr time? haha.. so we ended up walking around, slacking and talking. (: had crystal jade for lunch. she ate the whole long of xiao longbao! haha! i was like too full to eat the one and only xiao long bao. hahah! slacked with her till time that she need to meet up with her poly fren to celebrate one's bday. so i went back home.

KONG KONG! with drey and cp. hahah. until that i forgotten the time for supper. YES AUDREY, i went supper again!~ hahah! we arranged to meet at upper thomson, so i went down on a cab cos kok sends wendy home. and guess wad, replica watches was cheated!!! cab fare was like $12 and we went somewhere else for supper la!! wth!! had some men's talk. it feels so great talking to these 2 buddies, updating about our lives and everything. but somethings really amazed me. come to think of it, i'm the only single person. hahah! i'm quite envy of their lifes though, but there are oso good things about being single. (: so just let nature take its course den. (:

kok's flying off tmr for perth to visit his bro. YI LU SHUN FENG! take care! i'll see u guys when i get out of camp! it's great talking to u guys! enjoy your trip!

just came back, and i borrowed like 3 dvds from ken. haha! finally i get to watch SPIDERMAN 3! and i can watch it MYSELF. (:

4 days

2007-07-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

running out

today is a boring day... had training in the afternoon.. den went to get my ns stuffs. almost done. ns had cease my motivation to train. cos wadever i do now is redundant. it will be back to square one when i get enlisted. and no matter how well i bowl now, chanel handbags i'll nv make it into the asian youth squad, not even get promoted to the intermediate squad. ): and my phone is spoiled! ): i can't hear anything from the handset. need to go repair tmr. ): i wanted to get the E65. shld i buy and put at home, and just use it when i book out? hmm.. thinking aloud. haha!

omg! i found my long lost brother! elmo!! hahah!!

picture with my bro, elmo! :D

3 days

2007-07-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

take care

i've not blogged for a few days.. here's some updates. saturday, went bowling alone at csc. omg, something wrong with my bowling, i really dun feel good. ): but nvm la, i oso going ns already, even if i were to bowl 250 avg now oso no use already. oso not going asian youth. ): talking about ns, i'm left with 3 days. this is really fast. it was 2 months ago when i receive my enlistment letter. came back and i realised that i was suppose to do duty for the mobile lanes la. just changed and head off to the suntec.

on duty

we are to re-rack the pins for ppl to bowl la. it was like how boring. but to past time, we help with pin carry. haha. anyone can spare with our help! haha! so pro. theodor's jeans was like how nice la. u can find out below! haha!

how cool? with the middle finger. :D

headed home for mahjong with kok, jin and roger. the long time mahjong kahki. haha. david came at ard midnight with james. james is like how tired la. walking zombie. come all the way to sleep la. haha! they bought supper down and i realised aunty had great chilli man! haha! mahjong till 4 plus and i'm super tired...

no more...

2007-07-06T10:13:00.001+08:00

gone

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS AND YUAN JIN!!!

all the best in ur future undertakings!! hope to see you all soon... (:

yesterday was a really boring day, cos i had to work. went down to proshop with my love contract, and watched like 3 episode cos when i reached episode 14, i can't play la. the file got prob. den came home at around 830. that's all i did yesterday. haha. well done rite. no plans for today yet. (:

i was a bit chicken move when watch the show. there's this irritating guy who tries damn hard to be with the girl who already has a guy that she likes. omg! who the hell on earth would want to destroy the happiness of the girl he likes. isn't love about giving the other party happiness. does it matter if the guy beside her is u? no! it's not about being with her. it's about seeing her with the person who will give her happiness. since she's already so happy cos of the other guy, why would u want to do things that will break them apart. isn't that making the girl dishearten? so u're trying to say that you'll be happy to see her upset? omg! what the hell la! sorry, was rather chicken move. haha!

bern - hey! u'll be flying off tmr already for your asian schools. good luck and enjoy ya trip k! (: confirm got shopping session one, rmb to get me something! hehe! hongkong so fun, i wish i can go but i can't cos ns!!! arg!! alright, i'll see you when i'm out of tekong! (: take care!

wx - hey jiao! go der must bowl well, dun let ppl have chance to see u no up k! dun bowl likr me (kuku) can liao! hahah! alright! take care and enjoy the trip! (:

you - i know you won't be reading what i'm writing but this is it. i felt a sudden xin suan when i was writing you that sms. i know there won't be any reply from you. or mayb i only have a 20% expectation that u will reply, at least a 'thank you' or something. but true enough, u didn't. nvm abt tat. louis vuitton handbags rmb u said u will go out with me before my enlistment. that was like mayb 2 months ago. weeks passes by and u always had good reasons that u can't make it. and now, you'll be leaving for asian schools like how soon and i'll be in tekong when u r back. seems like whatever thing u said is say say only la. and u know wad, i didn't watch spiderman3 at all. guess it's not meant to be ba. anyway, good luck and enjoy your trip der ba. take care.

audreeyyyyy

2007-07-02T11:57:00.001+08:00

u hesitated & i'm disappointed

IT'S A AUDREEYYY DAY yesterday.

AUDREEYY... the bday ger... :D

hahah! okay, started my day with a funbowl. was told to meet for breakfast at like 830am at bb macs. i reached like at 820 la. so i waited and waited, suddenly stomach ache, which like need the toilet damn badly. the macs is like 2 storey and the toilet is located at the 2nd level. the main thing is that i've got like 5 bowling balls with me, how am i suppose to go up to the loo?!!?! hahah! roger is the best, called him at 815, he say he at home, coming out soon. so i tahan , wait for him to be der to look after my bowling ball nt becos ppl might steal it but becos i scared ppl tht i want to bomb the place. haha! but i called him again at 845, he's still at home!! wth la!! haha luckily felicia's dad drove in and i managed to get him to look after my bag of awhile. hehe.

funbowl wasn't that fantastic, lots of known bowlers were der, ppl like andy lai, andrew lee etc. i started off damn bad, a 154 but ended up with a 200 avg. i bet pin 7 for the last game la, and i got 2! hehe. that gives me a $12 profit. i wanted to bet my last shot for $5 la, but the bookie went off. and it stand. ): wasted. came in 14th and got back only $25.

a shot with the zhu jiao... (:

by the time i end, i was already late to meet that bday girl. oopss. hehe. so headed home to bathe and everything before leaving for cine. went singing and me and kun long are the only one singing la. AUDREY IS NV SINGING INTO THE MIC! haha! denise had to left early, so she didn't really enjoy that session much i suppose. anthea and ian came later. chanel handbags they went ddr after singing la. i was like super duper hungry so me and ian went for dinner without them. hehe. played like the staring and no laughing game. omg, i'm damn pro at it. audreyy improved already la... she says she can do it damn well if her opponent is kun long. ahah. played zhong ji mi ma after tat and everyone got sabotaged. hahah!

march past

2007-07-01T01:34:00.000+08:00

goodbye

today we said goodbye to our national stadium. it was the closing march past for the national stadium which will be tear down and rebuild.

looking up from the stadiumanother sight of the stadium

there's like a problem with everyone today, cos everyone is taking cab. i waited like 30mins for cab in the afternoon and every 10m along the road, u can see one person flagging for cab. it took me 40 mins to reach csc lo. traffic jam. ceddy came to pick me up to go for the march past.

we watched the soccer match between singapore and aust, halfway and we were asked to gather at the gate for the march past. it was like 830 den, and we only walked out at like 10? waste my time. rahh...

team singapore

bern and me...

me wx and ceddy..

Lights out after the whole ceremony. drank and 'dance'. i seriously i can't dance. ): bern's daddy sent me to clementi mrt and i cabbed home.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY!

all the best for ur future undertakings! (: seeya tmr! (:

to let go

2007-06-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

nthin' can be done

To let Go…

Doesn’t mean to stop caring,it means I can’t do it for someone else.

It’s not to cut myself off, It’s therealization that I can’t control another.

To Let Go….

Is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.

It is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To Let Go….

Is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself.

Is not to care for, but to care about.

To let Go….

Is not to fix, but to be supportive.

Is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To Let Go….

Is not to deny, but to accept.

Is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.

To Let Go….

Is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, and to cherish the moment.

Is not to criticize or regulate anyone, but to try to become whatever dream I can be.

To Let Go….

Is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future. Is to fear less and to love more.

And I do “LOVE YOU”

So I will…”LET YOU GO”…

jie, this post does not apply to u... it's for me. (: so dun tink to much into this. (:

dun cry jie...

2007-06-27T10:54:00.001+08:00

days past faster with a smile

wheee... yesterday was such a great weather to sleep in the morning cos it's raining.. but it turns out to be a super hot day in the afternoon... it's like 31 degrees la... *someone gave me that temperature. haha! anyway, i woke up at 10 plus and den fell asleep again on my cursed bed which kinda makes ppl who lie on it to fall asleep. i slept till like 12 plus before i'm officially awake. chanel handbags went to get lunch downstairs, and i had like 2 bbq chicken wings, a packet of fishball noodles and a cup of bubble tea. that's a very normal type of meal. haha!

slacked at hm till 2 plus and headed for training. it was like damn hot and i'm in the black training tee la.. super lethargic at that point in time. i had ppl to accompany thru my journey, so not so bad! hehe! (: i reached marina bay at like 3.25 and i found the bus-stop empty. that's a scary sign out there cos that means the bus might have just left and i'll need to wait like 20 mins for the next one, which oso means that i'll be late!! omg.. i had a weird dream the night before too, i dreamt that i violated all the rules and regulations of SBF. haha! so i make myself stand at a place whereby any cars that turns in can see me clearly! haha! just hoping that someone i know might turn in and give me a lift. to my rescue was ceddy. haha. i saw a yellow tuscani and i'm full of hope. hahah!

training was boring. i literally bowled pin 7 pin 10 for the whole session. my spare got so bad meh!?!?! i tink i can spare better den a lot of them lo! rah!! sucks. dad picked me from training and we headed to pick mum for dinner. i had 2 cups of bubble tea for dinner cos i wanted to try the milk tea and the flavoured red tea from that stall cos i nv buy from them b4. haha! i was on the way home when i took these pictures in the car. the sun was like so nice but i took the pic a bit too late. cos supposingly can see the whole sun. (:

artistic picture? taken by coincidence. hehe.
suppose to see the sun. but too late... ):

went to bowl at night ard 10pm with ian. he says my second step got problem. so sad. have to continue training on that. ):

jie, i'll settle the things for u k? so dun tink too much about it. (:

happy bday cp

2007-06-26T12:05:00.001+08:00

all by myself

went training and had a scary experience man. haha. i reached the alley like early, 3.15pm liddat, but when i step into the alley, there's like no one bowling, even the lights on the lanes are not on! there's no coaches no bowlers too.. i was like, 'am i in the right alley?' haha! yea, went to check with paul and it's just that i'm early.

finished tat in like 15 mins.. :D

tired after the 'fight'.. haha.. :D

went for dinner after training with dad and mum before i head for kok house. we gave cp a surprise, chanel handbags and that's my intention. it was quite well planned cos i've got brandon to settle all the internal affairs in school. (: it went on smoothly and they use the cake on cp face. it's the usual game la. haha.

went back home at around 1015.

seeing the 2 of u so close there's like nthing much left for me. wo ai de ren, ta yi you le ai ren, chong ta men de yan shen shuo ming le wo bu ke neng... stay happy always...

it's cleared

2007-06-25T10:37:00.000+08:00

it's cleared

yesterday was a tiring day, mayb it's tat i didnt had enough sleep. reached home at 2 and woke up at 7 plus. went to bowled the charity bowl by lions club. it's a team event. me cp brandon and kunlong. we were like all bowling damn lousy la. actually not only us. wx they all oso didn't bowl well. haha! the lanes are tough. had lunch der as they provide buffet. cp went to with his family to celebrate his birthday, so i was left alone. rotted at the alley with paul and started talking about someone. i didn't know he tinks that way too. haha!

took a bus down to spgg and i fell aslp on the way there. it's like a bloody 1 hr trip man! haha! luckily i woke up in time if nt i sure miss the stop. waited for kok and he's late!!! so i took a bus down to clementi to grab a bite. the chicken rice was like how pathetic la. i can count the no. of slices la! luckily it's only $2.50 if not i sure make noise. haha! went to get bubble tea, and bubble is at clementi is now $1.50!!!! rahh... not going my way. cos i'm already broke. i didn't know the charity bowl is like $300 per team, which means we have to pay $75 per person for 3 games!! heart pain!! $25/game!!

this thing cost me $1.50 now la! haha!

okay, went back to spgg and bowled with kok and wendy. nt bad, wendy improve already. (; the driller good. oopss.. hahah! went clementi for dinner and headed to kok house and dad came to pick me. had bak ku teh at hm. shiok.. i went to bed like straight after dinner la. and woke up at 10 plus. (:

hey u, tat's right! u! haha! thanks for accompanying me last night! (: and dun be crazy over that jm la, i see him everytime i look into the mirror. hahah! :p anyway, u can't see this till next weekend. (: tc.

jie, hope u r alright already. good that u've ppl to accompany u. if u were to need my company, dun hesitate to give me a call k! (: hugs.

and this is to you, now everything is cleared i think. so that's the thing u ask if cp had told me. there's nthing else i can do now but to wish u all the best. anyway i'll be going ns soon so i hope this won't be bothering me. tc.

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
wo zhi dao gu shi bu hui tai qu zhe
我总会遇见一个什么人
wo zhong hui yu jian yi ge she me ren
陪我过没有了她的人生
pei wo guo mei you le ta de ren sheng
成家立业之类的等等
chen jia li ye zhi lei de deng deng

她做了她觉得对的选择
ta zuo le ta jue de dui de xuan zhe
我只好祝福她真的对了
wo zhi hao zhu fu ta zhen de dui le
爱不到我最想要爱的人
ai bu dao wo zhui xiang yao ai de ren
谁还能要我怎样呢
shui hai neng yao wo zhen yang neh

我爱的人不是我的爱人
wo ai de ren bu shi wo de ai ren
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
ta xin li mei yi chun dou shu yu ling yi ge ren
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
ta zhen xing fu xing fu de zhen can ren
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
rang wo you ai you hen ta de ai zhe me na me shen
我爱的人她已有了爱人
wo ai de ren ta yi you le ai ren
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
cong ta men de yan shen shuo ming le wo bu ke neng
每当听见她或他说「我们」
mei dang ting jian ta huo ta shuo wo men
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
jiu xiang ting jian ai qing yong heng de chao xiao sheng

i'm here for u..

2007-06-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

i'll be with you

today was a tiring day, cos i reached home at only 2? david drag me to bowl with him la. and i've to wake up like 8 plus to go training. we bowled like a 6 games series. the top 2 will den proceed into the stepladder. the 'top' 2 came from my lane la! and tat's me and benji. haha! we are really screwed today. ben's screwed by the lanes and i'm screwed by myself. david says i need to change a brain. ): ceddy wins again, third win! congrats. (:

emo-ing in the shop... :x

went lunch and headed back to the shop. it was like how quiet till the time when i was about to leave. i dunno wad happened next.

will tekong look like this?

dad picked me up and we headed for nsrcc, my aunt has a chalet der. we're on our way when my bro called me to buy some orange syrup. mum called too. chanel handbags and was like asking wad to buy. so i was like a bit irritated, so i just said, 'aiya i buy the whole NTUC over la!' hahah! so bad. hahah! played mj at the chalet. i made like how big la, but nv game, ): win 5 bucks, but mum took it. when bowling with my cousins and i was suppose to teach them. i can't believe gary was like how serious la! i like! haha! joey falls asleep in the alley cos she was too young to bowl. haha! damn cute!

she is so cute!!

bowled like 2 games and we stopped. send ah ma and ah gong home and here i am! (:

you said you will treat her well when i hand her to you, and now this. so wad's your explanation!?

emokid

2007-06-22T02:27:00.001+08:00

emotions

a sudden rush of emotions. jie so nice. she doesn't want a pressie from me, want me to save the money for myself to enjoy before ns. so touched. but no worries, i can manage! (: jie has been damn nice to me, got me a watch for my bday, and i can't think of anything for her... ):

thinking about it, there's nothing that i can spent money on. it's either at the proshop or bowling. so why do i need money? i suddenly feel tat i need ppl. i need ppl who are really willing to spent time with me. david always say, go down and work la, oso nobody date u. thinking thru it, it's quite true. i've been asking someone out but it's always in vain. true enough, there's like nthing much for me to do. when's the last time i step into a theatre? when's the last time i walk around in shopping centres? seriously, louis vuitton handbags can't recall. think back, the number of shows that i've watched my whole life is not even the no. of shows kok can watch in a month! i used to have jie to watch with me, but since she's with teh lan, she'll most probably watch it with him. i understand. i oso paiseh to ask her to watch with me la. mum gave me complimentary tickets, and i sold it.

sorry ppl that i'm emo-ing... but... ya.. good night world.. (:

plaza park royal

2007-06-22T00:57:00.001+08:00

chocolate

today is full of chocolates... woke up at 8 plus and rotted on the bed till like 2? haha! mummy bought zhui kuay for me as breakfast. i ate at 11 plus before i went to slp again. meeting shereen at 5 to shop for jie pressie before we head for plaza park royal for our buffet dinner. so i didn't take lunch. only tool a yan yan, chocolate flavour. went to bugis and while i was waiting for shereen, there's this fountain at bugis filled with kids, drenched. they're having fun, at a shopping centre, wad a place to play with water. haha! i wonder how r they going to get home all wet? hahaha.

they are definitely enjoying themselves :D

so met them at the macs which i went to get an apple pie before i got gastric problem again. (: we walked to the hotel... and guess wad, i'm like complaining the whole journey der la, cos i wanted to take a cab down. haha! i wasn't that far though. haha!

we had a super full dinner. ate tempura ebi, pineapple rice, sweet & sour pork, ginger chicken, egg prata, durian prata (it's like how strong la), cakes and the CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!! haha! i took like alot la... haha! din manage to get a cake der. ): jie suggested to play mahjong so we took her car to her house cos she wanted to change before we head down to my house! hehe. mun ting was so nice that she created a slideshow for jie and even bought a cake all the way to my house! (: so nice of her! (: guess wad's the cake?!? CHOCOLATE AGAIN! haha! i'm going to avoid that for like a week man! haha!

jie & me :)

cool right! outside the restroom.. :x

faizal took like all my vitasoy la! haha! din't win at first but near the end i game a big one! win $8. hehe! oh ya, i got so irritated by ppl on the train lo. they didnt do anything wrong, but i was just super irritated by the noise. chanel handbags there's 3 malay guys talking like quite loudly and i dun understand a single word they say. plus one of them has irritating laughter! argg.. and there's like 2 pandas speaking loudly lo, i just got pissed by tat. pms la me. haha!

jie - hope u had fun today, i'll get u a pressie i promise. (: i know u waiting for me to sing ya a song!! haha.. get prepared for it! (: hugs.

happy birthday mummy & jie...

2007-06-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

beloved birthday girls

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY & JIE!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to mummy
happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to jie jie

happy birthday to you

today is the birthday of mummy and jie jie. all the best to the 2 of them! love ya lots! (:

mummy - this song is for you...

妈妈

那年还没长大
常常让你牵挂
是我不好你担心了吧
懵懂很不听话
也曾顶嘴吵架
我的脾气你没办法
你一个人沉默撑着家
任岁月在你额头刻划
你说爱是唯一的解答
那皱纹是代价
斑白的发是惩罚
妈妈辛苦为家
你别再让泪流下
我会照顾这个家
亲爱的妈妈
休息你辛苦了

没想过天会塌
总要你等一下
有谁多晚都等我回家
伤了你的气话
无意说的谎话
你都微笑说算了吧

我知道你累
现在换我来背
我一定不让你后悔
我让未来很美
亲爱的妈妈
请别再流下眼泪

你真是辛苦了
妈妈妈妈
你不用哭了
妈妈妈妈
不要再哭了

jie - here's your song... i can sing it to you when having dinner... (:

and u! yes u! something just came to mind before i fall asleep just now. and this is for u... LOVE TO LEARN like how you LEARN TO LOVE...

superstar

2007-06-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

superstar

when the road you're on
seem to be so long
you must carry on
you're not alone

when all hope is gone
everything seems wrong
don't be put upon
i am here for you

when you've nowhere to turn to
and no one to run to
i'll always be there by your side
i'll turn night into day
i'll keep dragons at bay
i'll do magic to turn wrong to right

i'll be your superstar
i'll be your light at the end of the tunnel
no matter how far or how high the bar
i will come flying thru barriers and hurdles

to be your superstar
i'll be your knight and your guardian angel
no matter how hard the obstacles are
now and forever
i'll be your superstar

omg, can't believe i'm posting this song again. and i've watched it 5 times? haha! damn nice la. SP SUPERSTAR MUSICAL! haha! i went bowling like twice today la. still can't get the right feel. but i tink there's something that i'll need to try. i'll just have to bowl a few more times and i'll be able to get it. (: impossible is nothin'. (: oh guess wad, i downloaded kong kong again!! to play with audrey!! haha! omg, damn lame la... audition doesn't like my com, so no choice. and i installed warcraft cos i found the original cd i bought like 4 yrs ago? haha! today is jie's bday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!!!!

i'll be seeing u tmr!!! hope u'll be super happy tmr! haha!! take care!!! hugs!!

hey u! u! u! u! dun look elsewhere! it's u! haha! a lame way to address this to you! haha. okay be serious. haha! ~~try to~~ THINK AND BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL DO IT!

it's getting smaller

2007-06-20T17:58:00.001+08:00

it's diminishing...

it has been quite a boring day. i woke up like how early can. played warcraft for a while, and ppl can u believe it tat i play warcraft?!? haha! went out to eat lunch and i walk one big round just for a cup of bubble tea. hehe. chanel handbags came back and rot awhile before i head for bukit batok csc. went to bowl alone.. it's too expensive for me to travel down to meet ian (seow) to bowl, and also too ex for him to travel to westwood. so yea..

someone said i didn't have a gf cos i dun go out and socialise. when i'm free i'm stuck with bowling. so sad can. but who want to socialise with me on such a day. ppl are working and the guys are in camp already!! hahah!

that's him

oh ya, my neighbours' cat is like damn cute la. he was like sun-tanning when i was going for my lunch la. hahha! the corridor was like in shade only one part with sun. and he was lying down der la. hahah!

it's getting clearer

2007-06-20T10:35:00.001+08:00

it's getting clearer

yesterday was my working day again. did 2 recon but got no sales. i was like damn tiring to do recon cos the spinning machine is place at a corner on the floor, and i have to sit on a ball to do the recon. after 2 balls my back and ass hurts. ): and i seriously think i'll need to bring a bottle of moisturizer down, cos the coverstock of the balls are making my hand super dry after i do the recon. my skin start to split already, partly becos of my bowling. i applied skin patch and i use puff ball, so it's like how dry. no choice.

close shop at 10 and took a cab down to spgg to pick david up and went westbowl. not bad the alley, chanel handbags but it's not well maintain cos the approach is like how dirty and there's like no backend. the staff, omg, attitude sia. if i were to be the GM i sure SACK SACK SACK! haha! bowled like 3 games and went off walking round the club. that place can't even take a cab la, super ulu although it's like right beside AYE. took 197 to jurong and change cab down to plaza bowl to look for uncle denny, and so nice, we reached there they are going for supper, so finally i got food! haha! had like porridge with 6 dishes. but me and david was like not enough, so we ordered AGAIN. haha! came back at ard 230.

was suppose to play kong kong with audrey la. haha. nvm today den play with u the lame game. hahah!

/edit oh ya, the stupid Ian (seow) make me bring my bowling balls down to the shop for nothing.. say wanna come in the end ps me!! arg!!! nvm la! luckily i bring those ball that i need to do something to down. haha. so smart! hehe. :D

screwed

2007-06-18T23:39:00.001+08:00

screwed

CATS test today at SICC, i can't believe i actually screwed it. i put shot everywhere. especially the first game. i actually had 1 thumb stuck shot which sends the ball far out and 2 drop ball shot which makes the ball goes right. my freaking target range is like 5.0!!! omg, can u believe it. second game was a bit better, 3.1. but there's something wrong with my timing today and i can't get it back on track even though i just went to practise. ): i need to do something about it before my next training. pls dun demote me... ):

my bracelet.. :)

had lunch with anthea and audrey after cats. i'm suppose to meet anthea so that i can get my bracelet. so nice... :) and audrey came along which is good... brighten up my day with wayne.. haha. oopss.. sorry drey. haha. she poured water on me la, cos i dun allow her to put salt into my drink and i attempt to pour it into hers. haha! luckily i'm quick enough to dodge it. haha. chanel handbags went home after lunch and played audition. i'm being owned by everyone. haha. tried my warcraft and i suck at it once again. ): not fated to play games la. haha!

went to bowl with ray and edmund was der. he was like using the motorola la. nice. but i dun really like motorola. i still want the E65... ): going to work tmr and ian's coming over after training. (:

thoughts

2007-06-17T16:41:00.001+08:00

thinking into future

had been thinking quite a bit these days, mayb it's becos i'm going to serve ns soon. had thinking negatively usually, but this time round, it's the opposite. i'm starting to think about my future, what am i going to do after i serve my ns? what if i can't get into university? what other things can i do during my uni days? and etc...

i dun wan to be one who keeps hanging around doing nothing. as ppl say, a grown up should have some plans for future. we cannot be happy with present and keep on stepping on the same spot. louis vuitton handbags we have to move on; before it's too late. one can't be relying on their parents forever. one day, they'll be gone. one won't be just supporting themselves for ever, they'll have to support a spouse and a family. life is not about oneself, it's about ppl around them too.

i need to do something about my life too.. i dun think i'm those that would be satisfy being an employee and work for ppl. tat's rather stupid cos the employer is getting all the benefits from the business and u are only doing the 'sai gang'. you're seeing the money coming in, but it's not for u. worth it? another alternative is to go into my field of studies. good money, but... no day no night. tat's so not me.

bowling? it's a hobby and a goal. but as a career, it mayb a bit risky. more and more coaches around, more and more proshops and the most scary, less and less alleys.

what can i start with den...

my ball!!!

2007-06-17T13:07:00.001+08:00

peaceful to piss-ful

it was a peaceful morning and i went training. and we had fun cos we bowled a mini tournament whereby each of us will bowl a 4 game series and we are fined 50cents for each open frame. chanel handbags the top 6 will then proceed into the stepladder. i finished 2nd after the 4 games la, but then the day turned pissful after my practice shot at lane 19 20. i threw like only 1 practice shot and my nitro got stuck. i waited till like the 1st match is over before i get my ball back la. and this is how it looks like when it came back...

my poor nitro...

i was like damn pissed la when that ass still say it's our fault. say we know ball stuck we should not throw anymore. but who the fuck knows the ball is stuck before they threw the next shot, hello it's practice throws. fuck.

went down to the shop and was like how busy. david pms, so we stayed till like midnight before we head for geylang for supper. david say the kuay chap was nice, but, disappointed sia. my house one better la! they didn't wanted to let me go back when i was like super tired la. went back at around 2 plus. slept my way thru in the cab and the uncle pissed me off again. he shouted at me la, say dun slp already! pissful dayyy....

dou huaa...

2007-06-16T01:55:00.001+08:00

only bowling balls

slept till 12 today, was like so reluctant to wake up. and david woke my up, asking me to go help him at the shop. went down at like 3 and work non stop till dinner. cos eugene came to drill all his ball. david was like so lazy la. chanel handbags he's suppose to do it for him but in the end i'm the one drilling while he continue with his freecell and hearts and spider solitare or wadever. haha.

this uncle pissed me off, he was like taking 2 super old and scractch ball in and asking this and tat. the worst thing is, he wants to recon tat stupid ball la. hate it! can't he just ball a new ball when the other 2 is like cmi already! fuck.

but i finally got to eat my dou hua today. we waited for this cust who called and ask if we were able to stay for awhile cos he's coming to buy ball. and for the sake for the $400 sales, we stayed. went geylang for the dou hua before we head home. super tired now and training is at 10am tmr.

hope u had a nice day, good night! (:

at work

2007-06-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

at work

the amount of ball to do... ):

phew, finally i can sit down and rest while having my dinner. i've been busy since the moment i step into the shop. drilled a ball, cut all the replugging, recon a ball and do the replugging. non stop. and at the mean time, a dunearn boy came down to buy a package, so spent some time entertaining him. i'm the best man, there is this tin of paint in the shop which we used to paint the drilling machine. guess wad, i accidentally whack the tin and it dropped directly into the rubbish bin la! haha! so pro can, luckily not much damange. haha! now i have throw away the whole rubbish bin. haha. luckily there were sales today, if nt i'll be called a jinx. haha!

how pro can i be.. haha...

alright, i better eat my food and continue to do up the stuffs...

i better have more things to do before i start to anyhow think. it's not that i'm an emo person, u need to put in feelings to be emo can! haha! it's just that i'm disappointed... i think any other human who were to put in the effort and feelings will feel it this way too...

busy busy busy...

2007-06-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

looking ahead

there's seriously a mistake la.. i receive my sports awards!! COLORS GOLD!! but... they definitely put the wrong sport la... BODY BUILDING!?!?! omg!!! how can i ever get a sports award for body building man!! haha!

my sports award certificate... body building!! haha!

a busy busy day ahead. woke up early to do up the drilling chart and the brochure. have to go do photocopying later before i go down to the shop in the afternoon.

my job...

what i have to do later: -

cut all the plugging
polish up all plugging
complete undone plugging
drill a ball
recondition a ball

it seem to be a short list, but... there's like 12 balls lying around!! OMG!! will be dead tired today. i'm getting hungry already. seems like there's a little bit of crave for bubble tea now.. haha. i shall tahan till lunch. and i'll take a brunch! (: stupid james went thailand leaving me alone in the shop, if not he can do the sai kang for me!! haha! enjoy ur trip james. haha! alright i've got to go and prepare everything, will blog more later or tonight. (:

have a great day ahead...

trainin and trainin...

2007-06-13T23:22:00.001+08:00

nthing's new

i'm left with 1 month...

the usual, woke up at 9plus, 10 plus and officially at 1. haha. was like lazing on the bed snoozing. haha. dunno is i damn suay or wad la, got all the suay things today.chanel handbags went to eat kuay chap for lunch, and i told the auntie i only want the egg, the tofu and the meat. but... she serve me with the intestines!!! in the end i only ate like kuay with egg. arggg... waste my money, luckily it's only $2.5o.

took train to training. so i found this sit and tht can sleep to raffles place, but... the guy came sit beside me stinks!!! the ncc guy in the uniform like filled with the sweat smell la. haha. i gangster, i stood up and walk off. in order not to make him paiseh, i pretend to be alighting. haha.

training was as usual, left there to bowl for 2 hours and go back. went dinner with ceddy, jolin, nana and steffi. didn't feel like going home straight so ask raymond out to bowl. didn't expect him to come too. haha. just reached hm and my shoulders are aching.

dun tell me to be optimistic, i am already, but i'm just facing the fact tat... no it's not for me...

back at work

2007-06-13T01:16:00.001+08:00

back to work.

woke up at 11 plus and went to meet david at IMM for lunch. we were like going shopping in daiso la. it's like wadever we see we were thinking if we can get it for the shop ornot. chanel handbags haha. went chevrons to collect some ball and flew back to the shop cos a customer was waiting der.

eugene came down with like 12 balls and i've to plug most of them. super tiring. chiew pang came at 8 to accompany me, wanted to bowl but didn't have lanes for him. too bad.. haha. went to uncle adam's mum wake after work.

i totally forgotten that i've to go down to the wake tonight, and i'm in red!! omg... so paiseh.. hope the family dun mind. (:

came home with david and i nearly puke man, the cab stinks... ):

will she one day accept my love, will she tink i'll be good enough...

guess it's not for me, no it's not for me....

i really think my chances are slim... how i wish my chances are like helmi... ):

back at training...

2007-06-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

back to training today...

slept till like 11? training at 4. super tiring. once again, it's 2hrs of continuous bowling by myself. ): went to marine bowl with wx and mark cos they want to do bowl. had macs der and started rotting till like 8 and went to meet chiew pang and audrey in town!

there's like nthing much to do la.. ate again, had long john tis time. i bought cheese for my fries and chiew pang can get smarter den tat... here goes the conversation...

Audrey: the cheese can ask for more one ornot?
Me: must pay one cannot la... u think pepsi meh!!!
CP: huh? Pepsi can ask for more ar?!?
*pepsi slogan is 'ASK FOR MORE'

hahaha... we can't help luffing la.. haha.. sent audrey and cp home and i'm home.. super tired.

1st SSS U18 International Championships

2007-06-11T12:31:00.001+08:00

i'm back after a long disappearance.

last one week was the 1st SSS U18 tournament, and i've been there thru' out the whole tournament. was actually scheduled to work as the Laison Officer, but was told that they dun need me and mich a week before the tournament cos they've hired larry from malaysia. but i went down even though i'm not working cos i'll be doing nothing anyway, so might as well go down and support her. but doesn't seems to help either.

oh ya, the first day was actually the official practise, so i dunno wad i can do la. haha. second day i was der thru out and something happened. so mike ask me to help him as the chief lane marshall so that the same situation wouldn't happen. i accepted it cos it's better than doing nothing.

wei xiang shot a Perfect Game on the last day of the qualifying, and it's the first game of that day!! haha! CONGRATS WEI XIANG! (: i was like behind since his first strike la. haha! the event ended on friday after prize presentation at the poolside. Mark came in 3rd after losing at the stepladder to IT. haha! Congrats Mark! (: everyone wasn't sure where to go after tat, chanel handbags finally after a long long drag, decided to go ktv! haha! dinner at burger king and went over to party world at cuppage plaza. ppl went were... cp, kun long, pom, anthea, audrey, thai guy (forget his name) oops. and me. haha! i feel rather old though. haha. we had emo sessions la. ended at 11 plus and send pom to basil house and cp home.

training next morning at victor's. 10am.

went to cut my hair after training. everyone didn't notice i got my hair cut la! waste of money. went home to get my stuffs and headed for sentosa, one degree 15! a yacht club! CP having his bday party on a YACHT!! YES! u didn't see wrongly! that's like how fun! though there was nthing much to do there, it's a great place for emo-sation. haha! rotting on the boat till dinner. went to watch the musical fountain and it's nt really tat nice la. oh ya, and we squeeze in the car to get there, 6 ppl at the back sits.. haha.. shaun was like on my lap and anthea was like pulling my leg hair la!! haha! went back and i get to my emo place, listening to music and charging my phone. the last time before i fall asleep i saw my watch, it was like 230am. but i was woke up by cp at 3 la!! omg, i tht i slept for sometime already but it's only half an hour! started cai quan so that someone would drink the absolute vodka la. i did a good mix with peach tea and 7up and audrey just can't stop drinking. haha!! cp can't mix! haha! and he can't drink. he was like cannot stand straight at all la. haha! they went to catch the sunrise without me... ):

woke up and rot till 'brunch' which cp's mum ordered. it's super ex. a plate of fries, a plate of nuggets, a plate of sausage and a plate of prawn fitters cost like $170!!! and the plate of sausage is like $75? vincent just attack that. haha! left the boat and went on ktv at the club!! everyone is like damn tired la... hahha..bas pom and edlyn came back. but they didn't sing la. bas falls aslp too. haha

dinner at vivo carl's jr. bas can eat man! we are like the first to finish la. haha. walked ard and headed to cp house cos he wanted to bowl. so went to watch him bowl till like 11 plus before i get home. fell aslp real soon....

oh ya, jazzy hit a perfect game at SSC 2 days ago!! CONGRATS JAZZY!! a piece of land in london.. haha! (:

i didn't talk to her though i saw her everyday the whole week. i dunno how to start, and i've got a bad feeling... she's like so close to so many others. she's like smiling while sms-ing... i dunno... guess it's not for me... suddenly a urge to ask....

Superstar

2007-06-04T07:50:00.000+08:00

When the road you're on
Seems to be so long
You must carry on
You're not alone

When all hope is gone
Everything seems wrong
Don't feel put upon
I am here for you

When you've nowhere to turn to
And no one to run to
I'll always be there by your side.
I'll turn night into day
I'll keep dragons at bay
I'll do magic to turn wrong to right

I'll be your superstar
I'll be your light at the end of the tunnel
No matter how far or how high the bar
I will come flying thru' barriers and hurdles

To be your superstar
I'll be your knight and your guardian angel
No matter how hard the obstacles are
Now and forever,
I'm your superstar

When the night is dark
And the odds are stark
You must still take heart
I'll be here for you

When you've nothing to cling to
And no one to love you
I'll always be there by your side
I'll still find a way
I'll make all things okay
Walk on water to turn back the tide

Guess it's not for me...

2007-06-02T15:04:00.000+08:00

Will she one day accept my love?

Will she think i'll be good enough?

See her thru' thick and thin

Thru' the good times and the bad

Now that he's gone and changed his mind

Now that he's left her heart behind

Can i just let her know that i'm here for her instead?

But it's not for me, it'll bever be

Why she even knows that i exist is laughable

Girls like her, i know deserve the best

A girl like her is not like all the rest

Guys like me won't pass the test, No, it's not for me.

No, it's not for me, it's just a fantasy

Will she ever feel for me the way i feel for her?

Heart beat faster when i hear her name

Start to stutter; things won't be the same

Stop! This day dream is insane!

Oh no, its not for me

No, it's not for me,

Guess it's not for me...

take care

2007-05-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

miss is the word

today was a long day, cos i've to work full shift. woke up officially at 11, did up some paperwork for david and went to work at 12. the journey was long, an hour, and i reach the shop at 1pm. do up all the plugging and did the most motivating thing today, drilling my own ball! haha! dunno whether it is rite. work till eleven before i left for home. reached hm at 12. super tired now.

u r sick again! drink more water and take care! i still want my fish and co. on sunday! dun ps me again hor... ):

boring friday

2007-05-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

it's a boring friday...

the only time that is not as bored is at sports sch! haha! went to causeway and bought bubble tea for edlyn and weixiang and deliver to their sch! haha! it's so boring that i didn't mind walking into that ulu place! talk cock till their second paper and came home soon after... have been rotting since den... all ur fault la!! haha!! :p

i'm back!!!

2007-05-01T23:17:00.001+08:00

i'm back!!! my 2 only known readers had pronounced my blog dead, so i must make it revive!!! haha! i wonder how many ppl actually visited my blog man! haha!!

i was away in macau for the previous week... it was rather fun except the fact that we have to tolerate the nagging by our 'beloved' lecturer! haha! we had it once we board the plane! we literally show no interest in what he's trying to put through to us, but he still continue! the first thing we think of when we reached our hotel is.... get the prepaid card!! haha!! and i spent like $40 on it? haha! we had free time till the nagger came to haunt us at our room!! he started his nagging session and promised that he would only talk till 7... but as we expected, he din! he continued till eugene emphasizes that it's past 7!! haha! went to this Portugal restaurant and i didn't had appetite cos i had maggi before that! haha! so they had a wonderful meal except me! guess wad we did as soon as we return to hotel? we stoned for his nagging session part 2!!! he talk his way thru like there's no tmr! i was forced to hide behind the bed la! so that i dun feel so guilty not listening to him! haha!

game started on the second day morning. there's this coach that sends us to the competition venue. we expect a room to urself to make our decision, but this time round, it's like some world chess competition whereby each country is given a table in a hall! we were like finished on the first period cos we made some wrong calculations. so we literally smoke our way thru... as we didn't change much to our decision, louis vuitton handbags we are always the first to complete and leave the hall for restroom.. and u know what this person do??? she slept in the hall!! omg! such an disgrace la!!! she's like redundant in this whole competition! had free lunch and dinner though... dinner was at this seafood restaurant, but... we are served with buffet!! the worst thing of all is, each of us are only entitled to ONE, O-N-E, 1 free drink!!! bad dinner... went to walk around the place but all the shops were closed. so we went drinking at this pub with some hong kong ppl from the UK team. the girl not bad looking but the guy.. hmm... no comments.. we had fun... but i wasn't in a good shape so was like stoning der...

our fun started on the 3rd day! SHOPPING AT ZHU HAI! haha!! we had our complimentary breakfast, which sucks, at the hotel and headed to the barrier gate by sneaking into our hotels shuttle.. haha... but the clever guys, me eugene and the nagger, forget to bring our departure cards!!! haha!!! we took a cab back to collect it and cross the border! shop till like 5 and headed back for the victory dinner! i swear the dinner sucks! the dish was like how pathetic and the menu sucks! the serve beef when there's team INDIA! they had lime ice-cream for dish 3 before the steak! omg! enough said... we went walking around at macau taking pictures and headed back to the convenience stall for.... MAGGI!!! haha!!!

last day, the day where we rush like no tmr! had breakfast at hotel, took a cab cross border to zhu hai once again to get everything.. i saw this bracelet and wanted to buy for myself, but they can't shorten it for me!! running late and gave up on it!! took a cab back from the barrier gate get our language and head for the airport! nv took lunch! grabbed all the almond biscuits der man! haha! this time round we are clever, didn't check in with the stupid girl and nagger! we sat the last row! and we met turbulence twice! and both the time, we are in the toilet!! haha!! good job! some ppl say will come pick me, but disappointed la! haha! mum and dad was der, we headed home straight and dad bought dinner back for me!

meet sid allen on saturday, and he says me timing is nuts! i dunno if that's good or bad! but had another session with him today! i took like the longest time man! haha! he says that i'm closed hip open shoulders at start but ended up with a open hip and shoulder when i'm going into the slide. so he wanted me to close my shoulders and hip all the way. in order to do that, i've to do something to my trilling foot at the slide, something to do with weight transfer, by putting the weight on the big toe and putting the knee into the sliding leg! hard to explain! haha! i'll get it fix by next week!! i'm determine to do it and i can!

mid year's coming, better work hard and do well cos i'm around! haha! good luck!! haha!!

congrats edlyn

2007-04-22T15:22:00.001+08:00

CONGRATS EDYLN!!!

edlyn came in second after a long fight since friday night! GOOD FIGHT! cos i was der la! haha! anyway, the Tan Beng Kiat was like damn heng la! he was about to lose lo! argg!! nvm la, give him chance. haha!

Alright i bowled damn badly in the National Masters la. top 30 from the bottom, somemore lose to some unknown bowler Phua Meiqi. and weixiang has been suaning me non stop about that! chanel handbags at least they won her. i was like the last few sbf bowler la, and they most probably giving me up? haiz.

i'm leaving for macau tmr. rather reluctant to go but got no choice.. ): oh ya, my enlistment letter is here.. meaning i'm going in soon! ): 13th of July is the day! freedom freedom freedom!! ):

went to my grandma's house this morning and suppose to meet edlyn for lunch la, her bday treat. BUT!!!! it was postponed again... are we going to postpone till next yr bday? hahah!! am stuck at home, cos it's raining damn heavily. ):

so suay

2007-04-18T15:59:00.001+08:00

i've been so suay... dunno why either... after all these 'surprises', i promise to kick its ass! arg!! but... it seems like lao tian dun wanna give me a chance to do it. i pulled a nerve on monday. it was like damn pain on monday after league. i applied yoko yoko the whole night and the next morning. it still hurts abit.chanel handbags today was alright but after trying 4 gms, it seems to hurt abit. i just applied the yoko yoko, hopefully it'll be okay at night.

my back's nt feeling good too, think it's my sleeping position last night... OMG, EVERYTHING IS SO WRONG!!! everyone is bowling with the right hand and i'm using the wrong hand! haha, that's so random. :/

i'm stuck in the shop cos david is bowling too.. :/ I WANT TO QUALIFY!!

i tink i did told her that i'll go down to watch her bowl, but now, i think i've nt done what i said... dun blame me for that man!

FUCK

2007-04-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

fuck! i know i shouldn't be using such language but i just couldn't take it anymore!!!! i dunno how i should face this fact. now everything is clear. all that i've been worrying about just came through. all the lies made to myself are cleared. i'm out of my mind. it's already all wrong at the beginning. no ones at fault, it's me. i created all these troubles for myself. i'm really shattered.........................

boring day as usual... slept till late and got up for chee cheong fun, dad ta bao for me. watch tv and play game till 12 something den go to spgg to meet helmi. we went to his house cos uncle adam wants to pick auntie and fai to visit their grandmother at tan tock seng. so waited for 1 hr and fai's not back yet.. we went off without him. went to the shop and started to drill non stop till like 7. omg.. tired.. came back, suppose to have dinner with ah ni but his mum cooked, so i've to end up eating alone. went to taman jurong to watch helmi bowl funbowl and had macs there. went supper with uncle denny and his kahki den came home. good night world. not in the best of mood today. sorry...

useless me...

2007-04-15T00:30:00.001+08:00

i know it is a little stupid, to feel troubled over such things. i dunno whether i'm doing it right or wrong. i know it's hard to get it right at this point in time cos time is definitely a factor. i just want to make the best out of it but i dun see the lighted path. she's there in front of me and i just stood retarded. i may not be the important factor but all i ask for is she'll stay happy always....

Had 'training' in the morning and i took a long time to reach mt faber cos i took a bus. trying to save some money for any unexpected expenses that i might incur at any point in time of the day. Reached there get prepared and the next thing i heard was, 'change back to your shoes, pack your stuffs and gather at the squad room'. well done. we didn't had enough lanes to accommodate all of us due to some unforeseen circumstances. So we had a 'classroom' lesson. uncle henry is such a great talker i must admit. he can be serious at times but also crack jokes that also carries a lesson for us to learn. had 2hrs of that and we started our photo taking session. We're dismiss after that. bowled 4 games with bing, she na and lenny. i still dun dare to put the whole thumb in after a few shots. i'll overcome that soon. it's clearing. (:

went to vivo and had lunch with bing and shena. had a disappointing yoshinoya and followed by a disappointing show, TMNT. oops sorry shena. haha. me and bing literally fall asleep during some parts of the show. the animation is like too fast that makes us feel giddy. haha. so the show ended after one and a half hours. she na went to support her club in the interclub league and bing suggested that he shld go get his hair cut. louis vuitton handbags so we went all the way to serangoon to get his hair all done up and we headed back to plaza sin for another show.. had macs for dinner and was also tempted by the cheezy hot dogs. we had 2 each and went to the cathay to get tickets for the show. wanted to watch 300 but dun have. so we had smoking aces instead. the show was quite nice just that it's abit chim. haha. headed home and now here i am... (:

gotta go open shop for helmi to drill his stupid total inferno tmr... ):

alright good night world. hopefully tmr will be a better day... (:

a dream

2007-04-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

I had a dream last night... it consist of her. haha. i thought it would be a nice and sweet dream, but it turned out to be a funny one. haha.

summary of the dream....
i caught her smoking outside some bowling alley.. and i tried all means to make her quit, but promises not to let her parents know. the dream did not complete, it ended that her dad nearly found out, however, i gave funny excuse and he believed. haha!!!

hopefully i'll be able to have a sweet dream tonight.... (: hehe...

alright, good night world....

CONGRATS BERNICE!!

2007-04-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

oh ya, i forgot to blog last night!!!

CONGRATULATIONS BERNICE!!!

congrats bern.... masters second... now u have like 2 golds and 1 silver la... though lost to hui erh on the last match but good fight!!! (: keep it up!!

Happy Bday Edlyn

2007-04-08T19:01:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Edlyn!!!

i was pang seh by this girl today AGAIN! haha!! still say won't put me aeroplane, cheat me!!! haha! anyway, hope u had a wonderful day! (: all the best in your bowling and studies and wadever u do.. haha!

I rot my day thru today thanks to miss edlyn kwok. haha. went bowling last night with nicholas, omg, chanel handbags they are bowling damn well man!! haha.. it's me that's bowling lousy la.. ): so looking forward to training tmr... training training here i come... gonna wear the new attire for tmr's training, the black adidas round neck! it's like tight fit la. damn sian.. haha.. anyway, it's better than the big big OP shirt. haha! alrite shall blog more when i have more things to say.. (:

i'm boredd....

2007-04-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

tmr's coaching lesson is cancelled... it's being postpone to morning evening... good and bad, i can go support in the morning. but i dun know whether i'll still be able to help jie in the coaching cos i usually got league at night. ):

wad did i do today? i went down to the shop to do up my beast and i drilled a ball for a customer. den dunno why my dad ask me to go bowl..haha.. he watch me bowl... hahha... bowled at planet bowl and oso bukit batok csc.. nt too bad.. (: came home and rot till now... so sian.... ):

good luck for tmr!!! (:

tiring day...

2007-04-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

it's a tiring day...

okay, i'm still a jinx to david... haha... i doesn't have a single customer of my own today once again. haha. but it was a busy day for me. reached the shop at 2pm and i started working non stop till 6 for dinner and started drilling at ard 7pm again. drilled a total of 5 balls today. tired... ):

still sick... take good care of yourself... get well soon.. hugs..

national schools...

2007-04-03T01:02:00.001+08:00

i seriously dunno whether i'm doing it right or not....

i've been changing my game for some time already, and i seriously dunno whether i'm doing what they want me to do... the most important part of my game now is to get the direction. this is the problem that lies in my game now... i'm always not in line at the point of release. i'm out of line to create the shot. when i gets in line now, i will have the tenancy to be above the ball instead of behind the ball. so i've got lots to do now... ):

alright summary of what i've done today....

morning went to yishun to watch bernice bowl as promise. anyway congrats though a bit wasted that she didn't manage to catch Ka Wai for the all events.. good fight though.. (: went off at about 1pm for home cos i've got training at 4pm. reached home at 2pm and get prepared. who knows, i left home at 245, chanel handbags which is a stupid time, cos i'll be late if i were to take a train and change a bus. but it is too early if i take a cab. better be early, so i took a cab and tat cost me $10. ): waste of money. went vivo for dinner with ceddy, jolin and li ying. we were like disturbing jolin all the way la.. she and her 'cousin'.. hahha... went for bowling at american club after tat.. supper with david james and roger... that's all for today...

tmr got to work... ): i want my shoes... (: oh.. jie is down with flu. drink more water!!! although i know u are already a water tank!! haha!! take care jie... i'll get to see u on saturday though.. haha...

you've did well today, so dun brood over it le. you've got the next upcoming battle which is the masters. rmb what u've or have not done so that u'll perform better for the masters. (: i'll try to go down on sat.... do take care of urself too.. rest well and drink more water... (:

30th Malaysia Open

2007-03-23T23:06:00.001+08:00

it has come to the end of the 30th Malaysia Open for me. My first international tournament with SBF. it was quite disappointing as i didn't make it into the masters finals. though i didnt managed to qualify, but at least i've learnt quite alot from uncle henry. chanel handbags he's nice to tell me what i had and wad i need to work on. good experience.

the only worry for me is that when i return back home, what will people say about me? "expected tat this guy wouldn't qualify. Sending him is just a waste of money..." haiz...

masters finals today. the guys didn't bowl well. stan had problems with the thumb. it's not his day i suppose. the girls did well. Good Job girls. gerrie came in third. daphne 2nd. shay 4th and she-na at 6th.

Womens open, daphne and amanda doing well. keep it up for tmr. those that are not doing well, dun give up. keep fighting! (:

malaysia here i come!!!

2007-03-19T02:13:00.001+08:00

7 and a half hours to go...

i'll be leaving for KL in 7 and a half hours... and i'm not going to sleep that early, cos i'll be bored to death when i'm on the coach if i were to be awake. planning to sleep on the louis vuitton. thinking whether to bring my lappie along, cos i'm expecting the rest to have their own entertainment on the way der and on the way back. but i've got nthing in my lappie too... haha... i think i'll bring the kung fu mahjong 3 along to watch it. haha...

praying... praying that everything will go on smoothly. i'll be able to do well for the tournament. i want to prove myself! (:

yea!!

2007-03-15T11:39:00.001+08:00

yea!! i'm going for malaysia open! hehe! my first tournament of the year... (:

yesterday was a long boring day at OCC. it's the learn to bowl camp for beginners. and we are advised to volunteer ourself to help out there. the first day was like busy cos only got 5 of us helping out so we were like each person taking care for something like 8 bowlers, chanel handbags teaching them to look like a bowler. yday was practically standing there and watching them bowl, just dun like accident happen.

what am i doing today? nthing special, looking after the shop. but i'm doing night shift, which means i'll only be able to leave that place at ard 10. omg. tat's like boring yea. so wad am i suppose to do der? rot with the vcd and hoping for CUSTOMERS.. can someone just buy things from us........????

no title

2007-03-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

'studying is not only about getting As or Bs. it is also about the process of learning. It do matters whether you've got an A or B cos it'll be determine your next phase of study. Buy even if it is a B, there's still a learning point, learning how to accept the results and get up to do even better next time. no doubt one will be disappointed and feel depressed, but one should not allow this feeling to go on forever, there must be a stop to it. and faster one get over it and think of what to do in order to come out a best solution to it, the strong one will become.'

I'm getting bored at home... had team training yesterday at victors. COPS Sheet once again. i bowled not as well 720. like 180 avg lo. picked up most of my single pin spare. was like aiming for a high game for the last game, stringing a turkey, followed by a stupid pocket leaving a 7-9. Double after that and comes the pin 7. back to back 2. chan ma li chan. haha. went to watch ian train after tat, omg, his bowling seriously improve man! rolling alot more. so much nicer den me. ):

Kok house in the evening. and gamble. i have no doubts that i should not be gambling for this year. cos from the first day of the new year i had nv win a single day!!! stayed till about 2 am and jie sent me home. slept soon after tat. training at 4 tmr....

my adidas watch!!!

2007-03-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

YEA!!!! THANKS TO MS ELISHA LIM EE CHING... I'VE GOT MY ADIDAS WATCH!!! haha.. no other colour to choose from but at least it is better than the yellow or the so called black one! heheh...

work till 2100hrs.. a bit tired cos we tidy up the place and other than that we can;t do anything cos there's some prob to the drilling machine. so sad... tmr have to work again. didn't jog today cos it's like raining in the morning.. a levels results coming out tmr!!! GOOD LUCK!!! don't worry, everything will be fine! (:

alright... i posted cos ms elisha lim say i must thank her here! haha~! good night ppl....

official work day....

2007-03-01T10:23:00.001+08:00

official work day...

i'm starting work today, finally after a long wait, the shop is ready for operation... but... we still can't drill ball... the drilling machine tat we've ordered doesn't come with the ball clamp and etc. so we've to wait for dunno how long to get that in place. ): i'll be working till ard 7 today and hopefully i'll be able to rush down to compass point to collect my watch! hehe!

and ya, i finally got my adidas watch!!! (: thanks elisha!!! for being nice for once.. oopss... haha!

yesterday wasn't a great day and the weather is not helping at all... i've to travel to so many places with a three ball bag with is a hindrance in such weather. traveled to planet bowl from home was still alright, cos it wasn't raining at that time. so i took my time, thinking that i'll be earlier than david. i took a train from home at 1130 when i'm suppose to meet him only at 1. but... who knows the stupid journey took me 1 and a half hours! it start drizzling den. clear the shop and waited for the machine to come. chanel handbags and guess wad. it's like pouring when i wanted to leave. i've got no choice but to leave cos i'm heading for victors for training. not even a cab in sight and there's an ang mo waiting outside. so with the 3 ball bag and a small pathetic umbrella, i walked out of Tessensohn Road and i finally get a cab. but, the price to pay is that i'm drenched. the only dry part was my head. haha.

training was fine with uncle henry around. i was told to transfer the amount of work done by the hand at the point of release to the whole pendulum swing. i'm not getting any roll for doing tat cos i'll need to learn to just let the ball off the hand. den i'll slowly feel the touch on the fingers when the ball leaves the swing. bernice got the Total NV.. it looks quite cool... i wanted that ball but it is of no use to me at the moment cos i'm still changing my game.

league after training. helmi was laughing his lungs out at my bowling la.. haha.. i feel weird but it looks okay on the video. hmm... nvm i shall just continuing trying till my muscles re writes its memory. (: the results was not too bad, we had 7 points when we only have 3 bowlers. haha.. we won 4 points for the last game man! i bowled 220 kok bowled 255. haha... our series tied at 605.. haha.. i bowled like 240, 150 and 220 la. haha.. so cool can.. haha... better den expected. haha.

gonna go meet david soon..........

hey, keep urself relax, dun think about it... it'll be fine... everything will be over by tmr... (: smiles!

shopping?

2007-02-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

i can't find the adidas watch!!!! all the city chain i went only had the yellow and the black one, which are the ugliest color in the whole series man. the newer model is too expensive, not worth it. i spent the afternoon looking for it.. i went to westmall, lot 1, den causeway point. the traveling expenses are wasted cos i didn't accomplish any task, not even depositing the cash. the stupid machine can only except my $50 notes and not the $10 notes. so might as well dun deposit at all! argg!!! nvm la, i can feel rich for sometime.. haha...

meaningless weekday...

2007-02-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

it's a meaningless day... no objective for the day, just rot at home...

i wanna buy the adidas watch, the plastic one. there's two version, the older one selling at $45 only.. but i can't find the nicer colors. most of the shops are left with the yellow and the black one, which is like so ugly can. maybe i shall try my luck at westmall or jurong point today... (:

training was alright yesterday... i have nv been that focus during training den yesterday. i gave myself the full 2 hours to make sure i make the necessary changes. and i must do it. i did it. (: though i still feel weird but at least i know what i should be doing. it's about the quality of the throws made, and not the quantity. (:

i'm starting to miss you,
but i'm not sure of wad's your perception of me...
so...
how should i make a move??

meaningful saturday afternoon...

2007-02-25T09:25:00.001+08:00

poor little kittens...

yesterday was a different saturday than the normal saturday where by i just go bowling and den mayb mahjong session at night. there wasn't any kahki available. slacked at hm in the morning and went bowling with ian in the afternoon. he had training so i just went bowling. came back with uncle denny and saw dawn at the void deck. for those who dunno who's dawn, let me introduce. dawn is my neighbour who stays on the 14th floor. (: she was stranded with 2 cute little kittens. the kittens were orangey brown in colour, pardon my color blindness. their eyes is like different from the others. the look in their eyes makes one unable to chuck them aside and walk off. so she was like thinking of how she should handle the situation. alright here's the background story of the kittens....

her sister found the kittens near her school situated at bt timah area. the kittens were like being abused by some cruel ppl and the mother had an accident according to her. so the sis brought the kittens home and the father was super angry cos they already had a dog at home. so he doesn't allow her to enter the house with the kitten. dawn who was going out at the time, had no choice but to help the sis settle the kittens somewhere so that the sis is able to go home.

so ian and i helped her with the kittens. we went around our block, looking for kind hearted family that will be able to take good care of them. we seen lots of different ppl. but most of them was like, 'so cutee... but... i already had one' or 'my parents dun allow' and the worst of all, 'my sis is allergic to cats!' omgg!! wad an excuse la. i can't stand those ppl that say that they really want the kitten but the parents dun allow all that. can't u just tell me u can't take it instead of giving us false hope?!! after like 3 hrs of search, we found this girl that stays at 470, just beside our block. she was like so excited with the kittens and tell us everything about how much she and her sis like about the kittens. louis vuitton handbags she even called the fren to ask if she's interested to get one. in the end, she told us that she's only able to adopt 1. so we were like persuading her until she allows them to stay for the day. we felt the relieve. so ian went home, dawn and i were suppose to go for dinner before we head home. who knows... the girl called and say she cannot keep the cats! say wad the father angry all that.. haiz.. waste our time squatting outside her house persuading her for like hrs. arRrrGggg.. oh ya, i didn't know there was a 'temple' at 470 man. the top floor corner unit. omg.. they are having some asking god event der.

and the story goes on... the 2 of us are stranded with the cats once again. we went to the potential pet shop at chinese garden mrt station. and it's a wasted trip, cos it's a beauty salon for pets!!! and they dun take in pets. so she called her sis and ask if there were any other pet shops around the area. we came back to our place the coffee shop area where there's a stall that sells cat food. but... it's a disappointed trip once again. it only sells food and it's closed. we were at our wits end so we went around asking at that block again. but no one seems interested. the block was like filled with those overseas workers and the house seem dirty lo. a scary place. den i suggested to visit qianer's place, cos she had a dog before and if she wants the kitten ornot. oh ya, the worst thing is that my phone ran out of batt!!! reached her house and she's not at hm. so i approached the mum, she recognises me. (: she 'scolded' me la. nv come with 2 oranges but 2 kittens. haha. damn funny. i promised her that i'll pay her a visit today. haha. auntie suggested that we approach the unit 30 cos they had a cat at hm. we went and there's no adult at home. the 2 kids were like interested so they called the dad. and the dad accepted the kittens without hesitation. their grandpa was at hm but he's like unfriendly la. we didn't care him cos he's like no say. we pass the kitten over and pray for them. hoping that they'll have a good life in that family.

finally we can have our dinner. went mac and had fillet-o-fish. had a chat till like 1030 and we went home.................

cny gathering...

2007-02-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

some random pictures during our gathering... (:

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR

2007-02-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!!

its a new year, a new phase in life. Wishing all peeps out der a happy Lunar New Year! Stay healthy and happy always! (:

had prayers at temple in the early afternoon cos it's reunion day, so have to send our respects to my grandparents (daddy's parents) who had passed away like years ago even before i was born. we had light vegetarian lunch before we proceed on the my the other grandparents house to da kai sha jie! haha! had steamboat der. it's like super crowded when all my aunties and uncles and cousins gathered in the 3-room flat. we used to sit down at the table to eat, but as time goes by, we ended up eating standing. all the small cousins have already grown up, though in primary sch and 2 in the sec sch, but they are like big size la. so the poor four of us which consist of my elder cousin who is 3 years older den me, his sis, my bro and i ended up standing with chopsticks. haha. fun fun! as usual after union dinner, we had our gambling session. haha. lost $14 and i decided to cut loss. a fast session. haha.

rotted for the rest of the day at home, waiting for my cousin to call me for mahjong session. msg them at 7 cos still got no info on wad time we're gonna start our session. but... we didn't play... cos unfortunately, their grandmother was in a critical situation, so they had to rush down to visit her. but, making the atmosphere worst, louis vuitton handbags were just a few mins late to see her for the last time. she passed away. my condolence. though she might have pass away at a 'wrong' time, but look positively, she had struggled for such a long time with the illness and now finally she's free from it. and she's like 80 already. so ya, dun be too sad my cousins. (: she would want all her younger generations to be happy.

thinking of tomorrow... life is vulnerable, treasure every moments...

2007-02-13T01:05:00.001+08:00

Before

After

This is what happened to me.. spot the difference? haha! alrite, went to cut hair today and i'm seriously broke, cos i bought a water bottle too. shiok after cutting hair. haha. went training at around 2 with david and training was like independent learning once again. keita was like arguing with thomas like for 1 and a half hours? omg! this is what thomas get me to do today,chanel handbags feeling a very loose swing. i literally feel nothin'. and this is suppose to be the way. (: finally better den the previous days.

league was disappointing other than having another teammate - Ms Roblyn Lee. at least we've got one more bowler. haha. bowled damn badly as expected cos of the change. ): nvm, i'll get better one day and i'll be back to kick the asses! (: hehe...

v day is like 2 days away, and i might have a date. haha.. it's international friendship day for me though cos i'm single. haha! but still, need to dig out some money for pressie and a stalk of rose at least. (: broke broke broke....

shed a tear

2007-02-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

shed a tear

i just feel like crying. so lost and helpless. i've nv been bothered by my bowling for quite sometime le, and now i'm feeling so helpless about it. everything is like out of place, and there isn't anyone around to help me. the national coaches are busy with so many of us and can't possibly be concentrating on just me. i can't go uncle denny's training now oso. if i were to go, i'll need to apply to sbf. but there'll be some side effects of it. the coaches might feel tat i dun trust them. and thus might not like me. wad shld i do, can someone help me.

hopin that changing my thumb pitch might help... ):

2007-02-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

love's in the air...

vday is round the corner... i'm not complaining that i'm all alone, just that i'm thinking what shld i do that day... cos most of my frens would be by their the other half, having a great time together. maybe i would be home the whole day with the tv? hmm... will ian be out on that day? haha. den we can spent time together with our the other half, bowling. haha. tat's sound so boring.

anyway, there'll be a change in my life soon.. u guys will know it soon. nt a major one, though the major one is obviously NS. tmr will be home again, cos i'll need to start revision before it's too late. i'll complete fmrp tmr and start with maths on monday. training will start on tues.

有多少爱可以重来
有多少人愿意等待
当懂得珍惜以后归来
却不知那份爱会不会还在
有多少爱可以重来
有多少人值得等待
当爱情已经桑田沧海
是否还有勇气去爱

(:

2007-02-03T12:45:00.001+08:00

so near yet so far

my bday was gd. it was supposingly a bday at hm until dinner with jie, but luckily, helmi came and pick me up. and the most interesting part is that we forced shereen to get out of the house without giving her any chances to say no. went to vivo for movie, the birthday. damn nice la. super touching. met with jie for dinner after her awards ceremony for the doha asian games. had dinner at spies, and there was a jam at plaza sin der la. it was taipusum la.chanel handbags dunno how to spell it la. haha. went to bt timah to meet kok and roger and we all watch roger makan. haha. and i received a pressie from them! omg! u wouldn't know what they gave me la.. haha. its a dozen of skin patch, a hi-latex tape, a pair of cover dogs and... A OP SINGAPORE JACKET!!! omg!!! and he kept all in a shoe box and wrapped up with newspaper and black construction paper. haha. thanks bro!

went bowling yesterday den mahjong at night. so my bowling fees are paid by kok, cos he lost!! haha!! just woke up... exams are near, gotta study very soon....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2007-02-01T10:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

happy birthday to katherine too... hehe.. yesterday was katherine's bday and we gave her a surprise by appearing at zouk without her knowing. but who the hell celebrates bday at zouk without booking of anything man?? and we did it last night! haha! I was the one being sabo cos u know ppl go zouk near midnight. haha.. kok can't stay for long and that's the sad part, cos his dad doesn't allow him to stay out during weekdays. ): we had like lots of jug with us la, and we finished it with 'cai quan' lo. haha. kenneth was a poor thing man, alwaes kenna from eddie. haha. had quite alot of fun though no girls approach me. haha!

alrite, that's the happy part of yesterday, the sad part was in the afternoon, cos was the first paper, portfolio management. though i know how to do the paper, but i really need to score for this paper just to get a B. how sad rite, i've nv been tat desperate for marks man. and i've gotta study for the next paper on my first training day, tuesday. training starting next week, wonder what they've installed for me... *thinking*

thinking of wad am i gonna do todae?? isit a home bdae? haha... which nice soul is gonna spend my bday with me?

生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的
你拿走的一切
还爱你带一点恨
还有时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐

portfolio management

2007-01-30T10:58:00.001+08:00

Portfolio Management Exam is just tmr, and i've only complete 2 topics yesterday. had no motivation to study man... i better be mugging today before i do badly for tmr's paper.

saturday went to bowl the monthly medal at spgg. this is the first time i feel so no confidence at spgg. i bowled like 192 for a 8-pin tap man! argg... luckily just managed to get 5 position to get back my money.. hehe. sunday didn't wanted to bowl at first, den david called me at ard 630 say taman jurong got funbowling. louis vuitton handbags so i went as well. not too bad, still got 10 pins handicap leh. haha. came in 6th and got back my money once again. hahaha. the worst thing is i had to use my WD to bowl lo. imagine how dry it is. omg. the WD carry was like siao la. haha.

went to bowl league yesterdae night and i realized i've to rest. my fingers are dying.... better start mugging soon...

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2007-01-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

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seems like holidays...

2007-01-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

it seem to be holidays....

it's study week, tuesday. and i'm like treating it as holidays le, cos i haven even touch anything for tmr's ca la! omg! tat's bad. cny is round the corner but i dun really feel the atmosphere. doesn't really care much about cny, cos i didn't buy any new clothes for that day. got to go down to the shop later to do stock taking. and i've got 4 balls to drill later too.

watched wan quan yu le on tv, and they were talking about which horoscope will have new relationships in which month. and aquarius only got 2 months! and that's next month and march! but the sad thing is..... all the new relationships would be zhu tou... or those that is one sided... damn sad la... aquarius so poor thing.. ):

schedule for this week....
Wed - GEMs CA
Thur - TO CA
Fri - CATS TEST
Sat - Funbowl

quite packed schedule, seems like no time to study.. haha.. i better start studying soon, if not i'll be dead! ):

official sch end

2007-01-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

official school ends............

yesterday marks the end of my school days. today is the start of my testes & exams. no more waking up dragging myself to school. had the first paper today, the FMRP CA. it's a 100mcqs paper, and we had 100 mins to complete it. guess wad, i used 45 mins to complete it! pro? haha! not very confident too. ):

Presentation and orientation tmr.. i'm just gonna be a 'vase' tomorrow.

i'm back again...

2007-01-17T21:10:00.001+08:00

2 more days to go...

i'm just 2 days away from my last day of school. after this i'm gonna prepare for my exams. exams are burden man! i hate this period, seems like so much to study... the papers are like one big stack la!

saturday is the finally presentation for BD, although not very stress, but it is still something for me to do.chanel handbags after the presentation, had the bowlers' orientation at spgg. gonna rot there for like 3 hours, listening to them talk cock, but i'm a noob, so no choice. i'm in the development squad, the lowest level of all... i must work hard to get to where i wanna be.

david is away, and i've to take care of the whole shop. helmi is no longer with the company, which means that i'm really alone at the shop. pluggings and more pluggings to do. i like the action attack in the shop, but it's like damn like cos it's david's, and i've no money for it.. ): i've already decided what to do after graduation and before enlistment, which is to go trainin everyday and to tend the shop. increase my attendance before my enlistment. hehe. (:

shag

2007-01-14T23:20:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling super lethargic now....

went grandma's house today in the morning. saw all my young cousins. omg, 2 of them are in secondary school already, but they had always leave a 'kiddy' impression with me. they still look like kid, doesn't have the sec sch student look man. haha. alright, i admit i'm getting old. didn't had granny's cooking for quite sometime, it taste good man!

dad sent me to mount faber for the national league. my aim was to just qualify for the masters, but, i bowl like shit la. i started with a 190 with 5 in a row and a gutter shot at the last shot. following games were 163 and 166. the worst thing of all is that i cut my thumb. it hurts, not very though. oh ya, chanel handbags was feeling damn cold before bowling la, but i didn't wanted to take out my jacket man, cos gerard had the same piece as me la! haha.. dad and mum came when i was bowling the third game and we went dinner together with jie at Alexander Market. had stingray!! so nice!!!

came back and i start doing the projects again.. just completed one and i have to start preparing for the BD presentation. oh ya, the previous post i was talking about me thinking of taking up air steward as a career and guess what, i check my school email that day and i found that SIA actually had a career talk and also interview for air steward. omg! and i missed it.. ): maybe i'm just not fated to be one. ):

tomorrow is the start of last week of school. i need to start preparing for the exams cos i've been missing lecture during the week of AIA and Youth Challenge and NTU invitational. that's like 3 weeks. alright, i've got to start doing my project le. good night world...

career?

2007-01-13T12:33:00.001+08:00

it's coming to the end of this chapter, soon i'll be in the next phase of my life, a new beginning..

poly life will be ending in around a month time, and i'll be serving the country for the next 2 years. in these 2 years i'll be learning to be a man, a real man. i believe i had a wonderful life for the past 3 years in SP cos i've a group of wonderful friends who've walked me through this phase of my life. the term is officially ending in one week time, guys are thinking of enlistment, while the ladies have already been sending in their resumes to different company, seeking for a job after graduation. some had already got one. at this very moment, i'm wondering what i'll be doing after the 2 years of national service. No doubt i've been through training to prepare me for the working life in the financial sector, however, i dun seem to have the interest in this line. True, it's a gold mine in this sector, but the money itself is not arousing any interest in me. louis vuitton handbags i don't really like the research part, and i don't like the working hours. so what if you've got all the money but you've no time to even spent it? All you do is to buy car buy house, which is just simply sheng wai wu? people may disagree with me, but at least that's what i think.

so what am i suppose to do after NS? i suppose it'll be study, cos i've no career in mind. NTU registration starts on my birthday, which is so soon. the headache part now is, what course should i enroll myself into? i don't feel like taking banking. the next option in my mind is accountancy. am i going to be a 'magician'? i don't have to do research in accounting, i dun have odd working hours, but all i do is face figures and more figures. it might be damn boring after all.

i've been inspired to be a pilot by this tv drama. i know it might be a bit tian zhen to choose a career through a show, but it'll be damn fun if life of a pilot is like what's shown. as in all the courses the trainee has to go through before he gets his license. it would be great to travel round the world. Rome is nice, and i believe other countries would have their unique places. accommodation would be free and allowance would be given. isn't it great? but unfortunately, i've got color blind. how sad can that get. i heard that being an air steward isn't that bad too. am seriously thinking about that. you'll be laughing at me by now....

i love bowling, but will i be able to continue, or will i end up like Remy? bowling for life? going into this line? i don't rule this out but i know it is a rather silly decision if i were to get into bowling line.

hoping for a better tomorrow....

blur me...

2007-01-12T11:39:00.001+08:00

alright, i've never been so blur and stupid before... lol... i updated the software of my phone thinking that i'll be much faster after updating the software. i reformatted my memory card as i thought i've back up everything into the com. and guess what, my sudoku is gone... forever... can't find that same nice version. chanel handbags it was pre-installed when i first bought my phone... and it's installed in the memory card, so when i reformatted the memory card, it's all gone!!! how itchy my hand can get man! arg!!!

life will be sad for the next week, cos it's the last week of school and lots of work are to be done. haven't been studying much, so have to do lots of studying during the study week. BD presentation is on the 20th and i'm not even inform till yesterday. ):

tis coming sat is the roll off for team spgg... old man ask me, kok and raymond to bowl. hmm, as for whether i'll be in, i've no question for tat cos i think the respond wouldn't be good either. lesson starting at 3pm today, and i've to be in sch by 1 to celebrate QIAN ER's BIRTHDAY! (: it has been raining for days which is both good and bad.. good cos i'll be able to use my jacket, but bad cos i can't bring my bowling ball in a rainy day which means i'll have to cab. ):

still waiting for the players' briefing.. dunno when training will start... hopefully there's nothing much to change on my game. teach me how to FOCUS!!! (: i think that's what i'm lack in.

Alright i'll blog more when i'm back home tonight.. (:

grandpa's death anniversary...

2007-01-08T00:16:00.001+08:00

today is grandpa's death anniversary...

grandpa, although i didn't have a chance to see you, i know u r always der watching over us. u passed away even before i'm even born, it's such a pity tat i'm unable to have a look at u and also feel the love for me. i know u will.. but it's alright.. i know u've heard the prayers i've made, and u will answer them wouldn't u?

met up with my uncles today cos it's grandpa's death anniversary.. we went to have bak ku teh after praying.. it wasn't that nice, my uncle's was far better... the way they treat the customer is totally different from wad my uncle used to do. theirs is a 'making money' way. all they do is to provide the customer with similar taste of the product, but not to give the customers the best of the product. chanel handbags my uncle always reheats the soup before serving it, as u know it need to be hot to taste nice. however, theirs is already prepared even before the cust orders. this allow fast serving and hence more customer. making money is totally different from satisfying the customers.

bowled league roll off at American Club. just bowl for fun....

it's saturday again

2007-01-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

it's so boring after all....

it's saturday again... woke up like twice this morning. first to pass radio to jin and den i went back to slp again. woke up at ard 12 again before kok came over to pick me up to go for the funfair thingy at yuhua cc. visited jin's stall for like 20 mins and i had to go for training. training with ian and alvin was okay, though abit tiring. uncle denny is like complaining about losing away schools. haha.. he's damn funny la!

uncle denny sent me home and i've been slacking since den... waiting for them to come over for mahjong... haha.. need a mj table!!! hahah...must i go buy 1? haha!

still tinking where to go for dinner, with roger... poor thing the 2 of us... but it's damn gay la....

delivery...

2007-01-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

alright so wad have i done today?

woke up at ard 10 something, had breakfast i started watching tv till like around 12. head down to shop to do up the plugging and stuffs. was suppose to meet up for this stupid CSB project at 2pm, but i waited till 330 before the kuku eugene arrives at spgg... had our mock meeting and disperse.

bowled 3 games with kok and alvin and i won kok 7 dollars!! haha.!!! so shiok!!

send three balls down to OCC with jo. OCC got something grand man! all cars are to go through police check lo.. must be some big shot staying der.. jo send me back after tat. and i've been rotting since den...

i love ah wang man!! the last episode is touching la!!! and he's damn cute... miss it.. haha...

YES! i've made it!!!

2007-01-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

YES!!! i've made it!!! after 3 years of continuous trying, i'm finally in.. but the sad part is my gay partner's out. ): nvm, we'll be in together next yr!!!

had my medical check up yesterday at cmpb, quite an inaccessible place though. Meet up with eugene at ard 1130 as we decided to go there early so we can have everything done fast. but, we've forgotten that 11-1 is their lunch time!?!? haha.. we started @ 1 and i ended at like 230pm, cos i didn't do the IQ questions. but that means i've to go back again to complete it some other day. ):

had league at night, and i bowled like fuck. 204, 175, 189. omg.. lousy. ):

2007!!!

2007-01-02T12:22:00.001+08:00

First day of twenty 07... had a bad headache in the morning.. somehow, so slp and rot at hm... wad a way to start the first day of the year. luckily it didn't last the whole day. manage to get out of the house to tampines for a funbowl. suppose to start at 7, but got some delay. and it was like 8 to a pair! like bowling league man! was bowling like shit, so wasn't in any placing. haha. chanel handbags ppl around are betting like crazy, damn funny la, the way the bargain for the odds. so i decided to bet the last shot. i gave $5 to ian and ask him to go and buy, den i was like tinking whether to buy $2 or $5. aiya forget it la, hack la. just buy la. and i got it!!! cover back my game money. hehe...

tmr is my medical check up! downgrade!!! haha..

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2007-01-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

it's 2007!!! I wish all my fellow buddies and frens all the best in the upcoming year! stay healthy and happy always!

guess where i did my count down? AT THE CORRIDOR!! omg... the most pathetic countdown ever.. rmb 2 years ago.....

Teh Lan: "i'm going countdown with my frens..."

His Dad: "countlown countlown... count wad lown la. take a chair go outside count la. 3.. 2.. 1.. den come back slp la..."

haha.. and that's wad happen to me last year... i went coffee with ian and raymond at bt panjang starbucks. went all the way der just for coffee.. ): took a cab home and everything just so qiao. when i reach my doorstep, i heard the firecrackers!!! wad a way to kua nian! lol... waiting for raymond to call to see if we'll be going taman jurong to bowl.. hahha...

ktv

2006-12-29T10:39:00.001+08:00

a long day yesterday.

went isetan with jie, shereen and shereen's mum. and i seriously didnt know that Isetan had so many members. :D they were having this private sales which is only for their members, and the place is like damn crowded la. u see ppl in office wear going to shop during lunch hours and ppl taking off just for the sale. omg! i was like totally not in the mood to shop for shirt lo, imagine u have to try all this and that. but jie got quite a few stuffs, but not for herself. ): thats sad. but at least she got herself a wallet, burberry one. hahah.

actually it was a good chance for me to get a jacket, (i didn't intend to get one till my mum offered to get me one cos she say wherever i go i'm in the stupid SP jacket) cos it's 30% discount. but... the model tat i wanted doesn't have my size. ): so still didn't get anything.

we shop like 2-3hrs and our tummy started making noise. went over to cine to have pastamania and also to meet faizal and kambing, the gays. lol. :D faizal went off for work and jie went to do her mani pedi cure. so the 3 of us just rot around in cine. louis vuitton handbags saw this cute little water dispenser which cos like 2o bucks, so tempted to buy but was stopped by the meeehhh... and there's tis clock that looks so cool la, but super ex. so dropped the idea.

we went over to adidas which my cousin is working at, and i got myself a jacket!! yea!! but it's bright orange la! the one in yellow has this stupid picture and words on it, if not i'll get the yellow one. but the orange is nice too!!! hahaha!!!

slacked at starbucks before i went over to Tanjong Pagar to meet eugene they all for KTV. party world at shenton way is damn cool la, got blue lighting somemore man!! haha!! but my voice wasnt tat good cos i had lots of the chocolate fondue last night at shereen's house la! arg!! nvm la! i was like singing all the older songs cos i'm getting sick of those new songs. hahaha... went for supper at the fat ger's house. eugene's treat! haha! for the first time he's being so nice to send us all home.. (:

tired...

2006-12-28T00:01:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling so tired... i feel that i'm like totally strength-less. my whole body is aching.

went bowling with kok and chiewpang this afternoon, and i only manage to bowl 2 games. maybe i should say straggle to bowl the 2 games. my whole arm is like super stiff tat i can't even swing the ball properly. chanel handbags and guess wad, i bowled my career low... no choice, after tat manage to swing the ball but have to endure the pain. ): my back has not recovered yet. it's like sudden pain after i release the ball. haiz, mayb i shld just rest and stop bowling for like a month or so. ):

went shereen's house for some post christmas party. and i lost money, about $10. had chocolate fondue, and it's like damn nice la. the mango so shiok!!! haha. i better start drinking more water from noww.... if nottt.... i'll be voice-less tmr... ):

Alrite, i miss the days in KL.... ):

Malaysia truely asia...

2006-12-25T23:39:00.001+08:00

back from milo and genting. damn tiring but was fun!

alrite, lets start with milo. nv had early nights at sunway. i had to stay in the bowling alley till like 3am for the first few nights, cos of the delay and i'm like bowling the night squad so it started at around 1 am. i brought like RM500 and i've nothing left by the 4th day man! haha! MQs are expensive and 'luckily' i injured my back which force me to stop trying MQs.chanel handbags haha! the last night at sunway was fun! stayed in bing's room with ray, mich, angeline, she na, gina, kok, stanley, ben, bing playing cards till like 730 when she na start to feel tired. haha. we even played basketball, softball and soccer in the room la. that's like how crazy and i lost stan a ramly burger. haha.

nv get a chance to red box due to someone. thanks huh...

genting is nothing but rotting. there's like limited things to shop, and i din go the outdoor themepark where all the fun rides were. played cards with chiewpang and kok in their room till like 7am. ahaha.. chiewpang is lousy at gambling man.. alwaes lose de. hahah..

update again next time....

confused?

2006-11-05T10:14:00.000+08:00

the questions just points back at me...

am i really fond of her?

am i really interested in her?

am i just finding someone to come into my life?

or am i just jealous that ppl around me are attached?

i'm confused. i'm starting to wonder if i'm really fond of her or i'm just finding someone to or just tat i'm having fun to go after ppl. haiz.

i tink i should just get out of all this shit......

just continue to bowl & study before i get into NS...............

wad am i doing??

AMG 2006

2006-10-22T11:59:00.001+08:00

alrite, i'm back!!! miss me? i doubt so....

15 October 2006, Singapore

TR802 to Macau... BUDGET TERMINAL!!! my first trip to go such places, and i'm taking TIGER AIRWAYS.. omg! so poor thing right... arrive at budget terminal at about 730am and had breakfast at HANS in the terminal. we were like scattered all around the terminal. enter the boarding gate at around 9.30.. there was not much shops inside the waiting area. eugene just got his cigarettes which is like dirt cheap. boarded the TR802 and we are on our way to Macau.... oh ya, we had a diff experience, by walking up the plane with the stairs. haha.....

way to macau.... the plane was like so small that u can't straighten ur legs. omg.... and the journey takes about 3 hrs plus...

landed safely at macau international airport at ard 130pm. and i can tell u that the arrival hall really CMI lo. we went thru the customs and we are like the last, cos we're in a quene that wasnt moving at all! they had a hard time checking my passport i can say. check my picture, doesn't look like me, so look for the updated pic, den see my passport expired, so check for extension. the problem here is, i've got lots of extension. so it took them some time to find the lastest one. hehe...

reached hotel at 3? and waited till 4 plus before we get into our rooms. the rooms are big. walk around to eat something at ding tai fung before we went back to wait for cheong for his briefing, but... he wasn't here, till we're abt to go for dinner... the dinner sucks man, all doesn't suit me. luckily i had my fair share at ding tai fung le, if not i'll need cup noodles man! though i still took cup noodles when we'll discussing after the dinner. haha...

cheong's briefing was long, he nags and nags till like 11 and he says that he would like us to go thru the thinking process which is like long and wanted us to slp like around 1130. he tinks we are god. i hope so too.. cannot tahan and i fell aslp at 2? hmm... somethings only eugene and cat knows. hahaa. omg!

16 October 2006, Macau

Early in the morning cheong came to our room, with a msg saying, 'coming over now, sir'. and wad's the best part, we are still in bed! eugene was like blur blur. why can't he just go find the gers?louis vuitton handbags hahha.. had breakfast at the hotel which was like not really nice. but nvm la, free wad, wad to expect. haha. went to the game venue and spent the whole day der until the victory dinner and i dunno wad place. we had to walk a distance before we had our dinner. took lots of pics though.

17 October 2006, Macau - Zhu Hai (China) - Macau - HongKong

woke up quite early that morning and had breakfast with an intention to cross the borders to zhu hai, part of china. heard that shopping there is cheap, so no choice, MUST GO! haha! took the ferry to hongkong which last abt an hour. check-in and hongkong, and THE ROOM IS SUPER SMALL!!! omg!!! shop and eat, shop and eat! haha!

counting down...

2006-10-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

10 hours to go.....

so boring... though i'm gonna fly to the furthest place i've even been, but, can't stop myself from missing ppl.. though it's only 5 days... i dunno why is tis feeling inside me... so miserable....

packing my stuffs onli like few mins ago. haha.

alrite, i dunno wad i've gonna say, good night world...

if only u were the one saying take care....

macau

2006-10-13T22:04:00.001+08:00

flying off to macau in like 1 day plus time.... and guess wad, i'm flying off by TIGER AIRWAYS... omg, so budget la... and cheong the nagger is like going to give us a briefing when we reached macau.. he's not gonna let us rest. omg!!! i need to think of ways to run away man. haha.

hong kong is wad i'm looking forward to, i've got lots of stuffs to buy.. getting broke soon...

just completed the registering for ns. and the medical checkup is gonna take up to 4 hrs. omg... that's long. there's this part in the questionaire that chanel handbags need to state my medical history and family medical history, and i finally found out wad cancer my mum is having. ): and it's not ONE but THREE!! HAIZ... ):

week has been boring, had been bowling badly.. they had the CATS test this week, and i'm not called to attend, meaning that i'm not selected.. ): third tried failed.... LOUSY ME...

seems like i'm left with nothin......

i hate this........

lots of stuff

2006-10-08T00:22:00.001+08:00

alright, there's a no. of things i would like to mention...

Firstly, THE HAZE SERIOUSLY SUCKS MAN!!! make me cough only!!! arggg... PSI as at 0017hrs is like 140! omg!!! that's bad... if it reaches 200, replica watches den i tink we don't need to go sch! haha!! i wonder how ppl still can go jogging with this type of air around man... they are trying to be funny...

Secondly, my parents are in Genting!!! and the car is like free to be used!!! BUT!!! the thing is, i haven get my liciense!! which means so near yet so far!! :( Jie using the car....

Thirdly, rolled off for the POL-ITE games team this morning. the lanes are like easy with lots of area, and i made it. :) fly down to taman jurong for training after tat. not bad, only 2 of us training, which means we get more focus. :)

Lastly, the SUPERSTAR POP MUSICAL was GREAT man!! i didn't expect it to be so nice. :) though the seats we get is like disappointing, but i still love the songs and all. quite touching and funny too.. nt regreting going... :) congrats prinsten, natasha and all... :)

alrite, tat's all for today...

good night world...

Love & Relationship

2006-10-02T21:20:00.001+08:00

Love & Relationships
featuring bowling

Walking into the bowling alley, you look at the lanes and chosen 1. As a perfectionist, u wanted to bowl well. You stood wondering what is the oiling pattern as theis is quite a new alley and it's your fiest time here. You dragged your bag over and stared blindly at your equipments, thinking which ball to use.

Similarly in relationship, you get to know a group of friends, and you had a crush on this particular person. You have no idea what's in her mind, what she thinks about you, what type of approach to know her better. You think of ways that is possible to get you into her heart, just like bowling, u think of possible lines to get the ball into the pocket. With the fear of the slippery approach, you hesitated.

Testing it out...

You wouldn't know what will happen until you try. The first shot goes down the lane, trying to be conservative, you dare not put the shot out, you put it near the pocket, however, it is not a strike. You know that u should try moving out to carry a certain pin, however, you are afraid that the ball will land up in the gutter. You hesitated once again.

Friends advise you to give it a try to show him/her what you feel about him/her, just like sending the ball out. With the fear that the shot might turn out the way you didn't wanted, and hence losing to the people who had chosen the same lane. so should you or should you not?

Perfect Game = Perfect Relationship?

Shooting a perfect game is not only about skill, there are lots of factors determining whether you will be able to get it or not. Firstly, it depends if you are match up with the lanes. In the case of a relationship, whether it would be a successful relationship partly depends on fate. However, it doesn't mean you wouldn't be able to get it even if you are not match up. You can compensate it with equipments, just like support from your friends.

Secondly, it depends on the lane ability to allow you to make mistakes. If the lane is full of area, even if you miss your target, you might still be able to strike. Just like in the case of a relationship, people do make mistakes, so if one of them is able to accept the mistakes, chanel handbags will still work out. However, you should not take it for granted. Once u see that mistake, you shouldn't make some adjustment before it is too late when the oil carries down, you can't afford to make anymore mistakes.

Constantly moving...

You can't bowl on the same area for the whole game, especially when there's more than one bowlers on the same lane. The lane will change, just like human. You must make minor adjustment constantly so that you can afford to make minor mistakes and strike.

Focus...

Do not look at how other ppl stand out in your crush just like in bowling, do not look at how the others perform, concentrate on your own game. This will affect your concentration and hence u will start making silly mistakes.

The oiling chart...

Obtain information from friends around you and get a rough idea how your crush is like, what are her interest so on and so forth. From here, you are able to figure out which is the possible method or ways to get into her heart. However, you must still test it out by giving it a try. Similarly in bowling, do look at the oiling chart to get a rough idea of how the lane is oiled, than figure out what are the more suitable equipment and area to bowl in. In every case, you should still give it a try.

Self confidence

One of the most important factor. It allows you to make more good moves and do the things that will touch her, just like making good shots to the pocket...

::CREDITS::

Aspiration given by Raymond Wong

dunno wad to say...

2006-10-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

do not think of me
cos i'm in ur mind, ur heart, ur soul...
ever if u want me,
just close ur eyes and listen i'm saying,
"i'm missing u tonight".

disappointment in my mind, can't stop thinking why i just can't do well whenever i need to. a king while practise, but a worm will competiting. a serious problem to overcome, hoping the solution will not be a problem. i feel the support, and i feel guilty disappointing those supporting me.

just hoping and praying...

do u know what i'm thinking? i wonder...