FUCK

fuck! i know i shouldn't be using such language but i just couldn't take it anymore!!!! i dunno how i should face this fact. now everything is clear. all that i've been worrying about just came through. all the lies made to myself are cleared. i'm out of my mind. it's already all wrong at the beginning. no ones at fault, it's me. i created all these troubles for myself. i'm really shattered.........................

boring day as usual... slept till late and got up for chee cheong fun, dad ta bao for me. watch tv and play game till 12 something den go to spgg to meet helmi. we went to his house cos uncle adam wants to pick auntie and fai to visit their grandmother at tan tock seng. so waited for 1 hr and fai's not back yet.. we went off without him. went to the shop and started to drill non stop till like 7. omg.. tired.. came back, suppose to have dinner with ah ni but his mum cooked, so i've to end up eating alone. went to taman jurong to watch helmi bowl funbowl and had macs there. went supper with uncle denny and his kahki den came home. good night world. not in the best of mood today. sorry...