be strong

be strong

today is my 2nd last day at home before my enlistment. suddenly got a suan suan feeling, a feeling that i will miss the life of a civilian, the life at home, the environment and everything else that i've been having all these years. ns is a big change, going thru' might be tough sometimes but it's a good experience i suppose.

i'll be enlisting in 2 days time and mum will be going for her ops on sat. for those who dunno what illness my mum is going thru or rather had been going thru, it's complicated. in short, it's cancer. and recently the liver has been infected or something liddat. so this sat ops will be putting a pipe in and doing kimo. it's painful i know. i won't be around with her. actually i've found out of her illness quite sometime ago, and i dun wan or rather dunno how to face it. i've been avoiding it. always trying to get out of it. and now, i feel rather guilty. chanel handbags just hope she'll get thru this time round. god pls bless her... i've told ppl that i've attended the poly graduation ceremony becos of my parents, and someone told me, "ya cos your parents scared that they might not have another chance." wad actually this person means is that i might not have the capability to get into university and graduate from der. but inside me i was thinking, 'yes they are scared, or rather she is scared that she might not have the chance to see me graduate from uni, not becos i can't get in or something, but she might not live to see it." )': haiz. i didn't realised i'm so concern about it till now. ):

i'm going to training later at 4. it'll be my last training before ns. and i hope after the 2 weeks in camp will make me forget about all the bad habits in my bowling and start afresh. get everything in place and so on. i will! kbox after training. haha! had been k box-ing quite often. but this time is for yq cos i wasn't able to attend his bday party. so sorry bro. gonna pack up everything by tonight.

please protect her thru this critical moments.. i'm willing to do anything...