she's ill... =(

wasn't motIvated to study for the past Whole week... no dIscipLine... hmm... juz finished CRS and i'm Left with 4 more paper... MOB is the Toughest Among the four... weaK? rEquires quite some memorization... tat's wad i hate... this week is the b'div for national schools... went to viCtor's Almost eveRydaE... supporting my junior was one OF the objective, the other is to learn something from watching... one of them maYbe able tO quUalify for the masters, meaning the top 10 bowlers among the 86 bowlers... not bad not bad... at least got some chance... tmr will be the last day for their team event, hope they do well... will be going with them, so have to wake up around 630... bus leaving @ 730... muz study during sat and sun le...!!!!!!!! somebody help me...

she's ill... =( wad can i do for her now? only by saying words of concern??? or do something more meaningful? i wan to... but how??? hmm... hoping she get well soon....

wad a day...

wad a sunday... spent my time quite meaningless-ly... woke up ard 10 plus... den went to eat dim sum with my mum at a coffee shop near my house... came home, slack a while, den go out meet teh lan and have lUnch den go toh house liaoz... watch the pba tour at his house... the pros bowling wasn't that complicated, but they can get the roll with ball speed... haiz... striking wasn't a problem to them... hmm... after pba tour we replica watches the Asian Bowling Tour on SCV... Jazreel Tan actualli won Liza and Amanda Ng won Sarah Yap... Finals was SIN VS SIN.. hmm... haha... their ball wasn't that fantastic, but the score was... i wanted those scores... when will i get it??? haiz...~

i'm lost...

it's 1.35am now... supposed to be in bed now... but there's somethings in my mind which i thing is better for me to blog this entry....

Afternoon was the bowler of the month, looking at the results.. makes me feel so lost... lost in a desert... everywhere looks the same, no either wad to do... had been bowling damn lousy for the past few weeks... or shall i say i've nv been good in it... was so disappointed... my goal of getting into the national youth squad seems so far... you xin wu li... haiz... hasn't been feeling good for long time... juz now played basketball with teh lan and some other bowlers... after tat went to talk at kopitiam den plaza... was sort of left out when they started to talk about their ex(s)... all of them was like so lucky...

came hm and soon wanted to go to bed... was lying down... so thoughts juz appear... it alwaes happens at night, before i can go into slp... some feeling was there, feels like wan jian chuan xin? i dunno... dunno how i shall explain it... i realised something, after deeper thoughts... i tink wad i've said abt chances is showing how selfish i am... realli... onli thinking abt myself... the hurting feeling reminds me or something... wad i've experience? hmm... mayb... when being hurt, chanel handbags dun feel good, it's painful... but still, i'm willing to be hurt... dunno why.. izzit those feelings tat is supporting it??? it muz be... remember the past... was being hurt again and again... mean words, actions... but i still waited for 4 yrs... ppl might tink i'm stupid, an idiot... but still, it's that feeling... having those feelings again... i dunno the same thing would happen again, but i dun mind being hurt too... so coincidence, my com is playing 'waiting for you'... tink i'm feeling better after typing tis...

stupid time to blog...

it's now 4.15am when i start to enter this entry... it's a bit stupid to blog at tis hour, but juz can't fall asleep... struggling to Make myself slp, but can't... mAyb after tis entrY i'll feel a Bit more tirEd ba... hmm....

had made some menTal preparatIons before everything started, adopted the doctrine of conservatisM... anticipatEd the 'loss'... hmm... but i'll be Strong, tat's wad i promised... i juz hope tat everything remaiNs the samE... hope tis doEsn't affects our frienDship... would put ur suggEstion into consiDeration, but most likely it wouldn't be adopted... mayb the handiplast is made to be utilised and thrown after use... haha... aniwae, i've learn to put myself in other's shoe and think... i fully understand... hehe... so no worries...

todae is the last dae DBF/1/01 ['04/05]'s together as a class... this day has come... i dunno if anione would actualli wan tis day to come earlier, to mi, is juz too fast... but aniwae, we'll have to accept the fact that life has to go on... "Shi Shang Wo Bu San Zhi Yan Xi" ba... We've reached the stage 5 of grp process... we've gone thru step 4 tat's why we ain't tat willing to part... so, dun be sad, look forward, and work hard together... it's like a road which we come along and reached a road split... some took the left lane and some on the right... but soon, we'll reached our common destination, chanel handbags and meet at the petrol kiosk which we pump petrol and encourage one another to continue this long journey... is like going to yishun from bt.panjang... some took the old woodlanes road followed by mandai rd... some took aye and den sle... we've met by coincidence or fate in the previous petrol kiosk, and enjoyed each other's accompany thru this straight road in yr 1, racing with one another... so i'll treasure this time and will keep this beautiful memories...

so everyone, take care... drive carefully on the upcoming roads, do not stop and give up when u see road construction, be patience... keep moving.... JIAYOU!!!!

i love econs!

i love econs, but had the last tutorial todae le coz next friday is good friday, so ya, tutorial is cancelled... time realli flies... it's been a year since we start our poly journey... soon we'll be in year 2 le... Mr Sin had been the best lecturer among all the lecturer that taught me... he makes me feel interested in econs which mostly ppl hated the most... he had been very nice to the class too... he won't be teaching us next yr, so sad... will miss his lectures and tutorials...

1 yr, next yr we'll be in different class le... some will go banking and some will go finance... the KELT gonna split... KL in banking and ET in finance... no more turnova... haiz... with tat thought realli feels so bu she de... although during the orientation, we wasn't like wad the other class is like, veri united... we were like unwilling or shy to talk to each other, we didn't even have our own cheer... so shattered... miss cathryn lim too, so independent... during the orientation even get scolded by her, not directly at mi but eugene... she's the strongest girl in class... tat's to me... veri good in studies... at first almost all the guys dun realli like her, but now, we're good frens... another one is kumar... everyone hated him when he's so kpo abt ppl's nick at the start, so irritating and arrogant... now, he's one of our kai xing guo... gonna miss him too... jie ai our de-stress instruments... the way she speaks realli makes us laugh, louis vuitton handbags even the serious cathryn luffs when jie ai speaks... she's one tat slps 24 hrs a day man... haha... her 'wei' 'wo yao shui jiao' is our fav. quote now... next we have my tu di, ng qian er... at the beginning, tht she was a vere quiet type... in the end, she's the noisiest in the class... talking non stop... alwaes toking abt monkey, blackie... haha... veri cheerful ger... she's one that gave mi a new task other den studying, which is teaching... she mayb a bit slow in absorbing the info, but she's willing to ask... explaining to her needs to use more practical or rather kids style... she'll understand it better in this way... she gave mi some sort of man zhu gan in the previous econs test... she scored an 'A'... next yr think she'll have to find a new shifu to help her le, all the best! next, chen yong en... she's the lowest profile ger in class.. eugene alwaes forgot her name.. haha.. but she's a super lamer too... veri fun talking to her... hmm...

Now is the KELT... K - Kelvin... tis super long guy... haha... alwaes damn early coz he live damn far and come super early... he lives in puggol... haha.. know him better during the second day of orientation when we intended to run away during the lunch break... he's also a lamer of our grp who had been attracted to Michael Wong a national bballer recently... he's not realli good in accs as he nv took it before, but alwaes skip accs lecture with us... it's time to help him... Next, E - Eugene Ong... this bloody kuku... haha... had been the most qian da person during the first dae of orientation... had that bo chap face, kept saying that his purpose is to study, not orientation... but now... he is my buddy... he's one of my jin zheng dui shou too... veri good in studies, and in Pool... but realli cannot make it when comes to bowling... haha... we've been thru almost all the projects together... during the presentation days, we wore stripes and checkered shirt without even notifying each other... xin lin xiang tong... hmm.. haha... hope that next yr would still have him in my class... Last of all L - Lawrence... He's the first guy in tat i know in poly.. it's the first day of orientation and we literally mi lu in sch... so we intro and found tat we are in the same class... great lamer too, alwaes disturbing kumar... after all, this three guys have been my closest fren in poly... gonna miss the time when KELT skipped lecture together, rushing for project... (projects less often... usualli is mi, eugene, cathryn, qianer, jie ai and priscilla) gonna miss them too, all the last min preparation... all the best guys... tmr shall continue.. haha...

why can't the info go in??!?!?

hmm... had been struggling to study todae... wanted to start but can't realli get the information into my head... mayb it's the floor... as u all know, i dun have ani table for mi to write on in my room... so i was like doing everything on the floor... hmmm... mayb it's time for me to get a new writing table... i've got to ke fu tis zhang ai... haha...

today is quite a short day though... went for accs @ 10 till 12, followed for IHRP at 1-3... we went all the way to foodcourt 1 to have our lunch... was like so cheap lo... if everydae eat at tis price, i tink my savings function will shift upwards.. haha... eugene fetch us back to T16 for GEMs... todae GEMs lesson was so lonely... leona, replica watches eve and yan nv go... but i todae tried to listen to his lecture... actually he not bad leh, i do quite like him... although i seldom listen to his lecture... haha... next week would be the last lecture le... hmm... IHRP exams is next thursday.. have to at least read thru the notes le... hmm...

tmr is my last presentation for the semester le, CRS presentation... stupid presentation... tink we were not prepared for it at all lo.. me and nisa juz did the slides todae... so word-y... but who cares... juz try our best to present la... bo bian liao... after tis will have more time to concentrate on the other modules liaoz... on ya, CRS still got one more ICA... on week 16.. sian man... i dun realli like CRS... is a toopid module... dun wan to forward tis module as well, have to jia you le... seems like there alot for me to stress on.. hmm...

why am i so tired???

today was a very tired day... i dunno why too... was like feeling asleep in our dear mr sin's class... hence, i've decided to skip accs lecture... but b4 i go home, went to BBDC with Kumar and Kelvin to book my FTT... hehe... didn't get my PDL yet... i was like a idiot walking around in the centre... didn't know wad to do man... blur blur down der at the TP counter... haiz... next month chanel handbags will be a super exam week... with the FTT in the middle of MOB and Statistic... i still got HR to study... ohh noo... i'm dead... better start with my revision soon... pls grant me the determination and the discipline to study... i dun wan a juz pass, but some better results... i need them... i need motivation!!! seems like i'll be a nocturnal soon... hope i'll be able to take it... tmr shopping for my night study materials... Any gasless drink and some tidbitS!!

Finally... 1 more to go...

*phew* finally two presentations are over... left with CRS tis coming thursday... got to work on it, dun wanna forward such stupid module... today's presentation goes quite well, at least for the advertisement part, everyone burst into laughter.. hmm.. hehe... mr teo sae wanna help us send our product proposal to Mr Sim Wong Hoo, Creative Technology... if he buys over our idea, that will be GREAT! haha... that is IF he wans to... haha...

Am so shagged and tired now... was rushing the presentation only yesterday... all rush work, but at least is presentable... had accs lecture todae, and after dunno how many donkey mths of skipping accs lecture, i'm back in the lecture hall today... and still, chanel handbags Sharon is sooo boring!!!!!!! i realli kinda fall asleep todae... Todae actualli wanna go NYDC de... it has been in my mind since the day eugene got a car as his grandma went overseas... it's not fulfil till todae, coz we went too early... it only opens @ 1130 and we were der at 1030 lo... my hopes for the baked rice is gone... arg...

Can sense tat she isn't feeling good this few days... was like alwaes tired and bored... am wondering wad's in her mind... i can't help, that's the worst... i might make things worst, so decided not to gan she... but will be der for her...

Had to start my revision for the up-coming exams le... haiz... shall start with MOB that occupies 6 credits and most importantly, it is the first paper... kambatei...

i not feeling good...

Am not feeling good... am i too anxious? too desperate? am realli having bad intuition... haiz...

yesterdae went to NSRCC to bowl the 8-pin & 9-pin tap tournament... was like shit... onli 208 avg lo... haiz.. utterly disappointed... reached hm at ard 1130? hmm... went online awhile... den tinking was time to slp... lying down on the bed, juz can't go into the dreamland... things were like flashing thru my mind, bad things... lots of questions, no ans... was tinking whether i am being too irritating? haiz.... was juz too scared... useless freak... studies already not doing well, GPA was like onli 3, can't make it into a local U... haiz... everything of my life seems to be in a mess... a wan jian chuan xin feeling... with tong hua playing from my com, am asking myself, "tong hua li dou shi pian ren de, wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi..." will that be true? tossing on the bed, and soon went to bed, woke up at 7 plus tis morning... receive the ans at 11 ba, i was prepared for the worst, louis vuitton handbags i know for ppl like me wouldn't get things going the wae that i wish it could be.. but nvm, i'll still try, i've found u and i'll hang on... i know it wouldn't be easy, but since i've taken my first step into it, i'll walk till it comes to a dead end, surrounded by walls... i can't tink of anithing that is able to stop me, onli that if u r finding me irritatin, i'll den make myself walk in the path where no one sees me till the day u need mi... ppl may think i'm stupid, but if it's stupid, i would not want to be clever...

went to bowl with toh, von and alan at bp plaza... den trainin at 1430... wasn't hearing anithing from her... mayb i should not be so anxious ba.. went home on a cab, suddenly started raining cats and dogs... was no shelter, become a luo tang ji... haha... went to bathe straight, dun wan to fall sick, nobody is gonna care, i've to be independent... dunno whether shld go warren to find kok they all ornot leh... that place so ulu... so hungry... think i better go get something for dinner... take care everyone! am waiting, no matter wad, tat's a promise...

请你相信我

品冠

一定是我从你心里 拿走了什么
不然怎么你的双眼 忽然很沉默
有人说 永远太苦了 谁说不是呢
爱情哪 太惊心动魄 我才把你手紧握

时空换了 光阴飞走 世界都变了
请你相信我 爱你是真的
风起云涌 潮来潮落 人海中的我
只要世界还有你 回忆不会贫穷 请你相信我

我不停问下一分钟 能给你什么
那时让你哭过的话 是我在胡说
有人说 永远太苦了 谁说不是呢
爱情哪 太惊心动魄 我才把你手紧握

时空换了 光阴飞走 世界都变了
请你相信我 爱你是真的
风起云涌 潮来潮落 人海中的我
只要世界还有你 回忆不会贫穷 请你相信我

If every night i dream of u, i would not want to wake up...

If every moment i closed my eyes for a nap, i will wan to sleep forever... I'm missing ya...~

it's been quite some time since i've last blogged, had been lazy for the past few days... kok, kenneth, the sentence seems familar to u all huh... haha... aniway, yesterdae went to ate NYDC with ken, we were like enjoy top end class life... haha... shiok, we total spent ard $30 each... the Hawaian baked rice was damn nice lo, make mi tempted, but i've alreadi ordered... nvm, wait for jie come back den go eat... hehe... after our lunch, went back to sch to do project... hmm... was like struggling with the business proposal... my basic theory results coming out soon, so excited, hope i passed... hmm... awaiting for the day that i'm driving... gtg for sch le.... see ya ard guys... take care...

BTT's over...

YEAH!... i'm done with my basic theory yesterdae... hehe... so happy that i can answer all the question except 1... 'how far away from a junction you shld not park your car?' hmm... i choose the furthest dist... haha... blog again later.. hehe...

Lost Without You

Delta Goodremly

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes

A little righteous and too proud

I just want to find a way to compromise

Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in

But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side

If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm

lost without you

I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you

I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues

Baby I'm so lonely all the time

Everywhere I go I get so confused

You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day

Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side

If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm

lost without you

I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you

I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away

Can't stop the tears from running down my face

Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my sideI

f we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm

lost without you

I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you

I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you