to let go

nthin' can be done

To let Go…

Doesn’t mean to stop caring,it means I can’t do it for someone else.

It’s not to cut myself off, It’s therealization that I can’t control another.

To Let Go….

Is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.

It is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To Let Go….

Is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself.

Is not to care for, but to care about.

To let Go….

Is not to fix, but to be supportive.

Is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To Let Go….

Is not to deny, but to accept.

Is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.

To Let Go….

Is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, and to cherish the moment.

Is not to criticize or regulate anyone, but to try to become whatever dream I can be.

To Let Go….

Is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future. Is to fear less and to love more.

And I do “LOVE YOU”

So I will…”LET YOU GO”…

jie, this post does not apply to u... it's for me. (: so dun tink to much into this. (:

dun cry jie...

days past faster with a smile

wheee... yesterday was such a great weather to sleep in the morning cos it's raining.. but it turns out to be a super hot day in the afternoon... it's like 31 degrees la... *someone gave me that temperature. haha! anyway, i woke up at 10 plus and den fell asleep again on my cursed bed which kinda makes ppl who lie on it to fall asleep. i slept till like 12 plus before i'm officially awake. chanel handbags went to get lunch downstairs, and i had like 2 bbq chicken wings, a packet of fishball noodles and a cup of bubble tea. that's a very normal type of meal. haha!

slacked at hm till 2 plus and headed for training. it was like damn hot and i'm in the black training tee la.. super lethargic at that point in time. i had ppl to accompany thru my journey, so not so bad! hehe! (: i reached marina bay at like 3.25 and i found the bus-stop empty. that's a scary sign out there cos that means the bus might have just left and i'll need to wait like 20 mins for the next one, which oso means that i'll be late!! omg.. i had a weird dream the night before too, i dreamt that i violated all the rules and regulations of SBF. haha! so i make myself stand at a place whereby any cars that turns in can see me clearly! haha! just hoping that someone i know might turn in and give me a lift. to my rescue was ceddy. haha. i saw a yellow tuscani and i'm full of hope. hahah!

training was boring. i literally bowled pin 7 pin 10 for the whole session. my spare got so bad meh!?!?! i tink i can spare better den a lot of them lo! rah!! sucks. dad picked me from training and we headed to pick mum for dinner. i had 2 cups of bubble tea for dinner cos i wanted to try the milk tea and the flavoured red tea from that stall cos i nv buy from them b4. haha! i was on the way home when i took these pictures in the car. the sun was like so nice but i took the pic a bit too late. cos supposingly can see the whole sun. (:

artistic picture? taken by coincidence. hehe.
suppose to see the sun. but too late... ):

went to bowl at night ard 10pm with ian. he says my second step got problem. so sad. have to continue training on that. ):

jie, i'll settle the things for u k? so dun tink too much about it. (:

happy bday cp

all by myself

went training and had a scary experience man. haha. i reached the alley like early, 3.15pm liddat, but when i step into the alley, there's like no one bowling, even the lights on the lanes are not on! there's no coaches no bowlers too.. i was like, 'am i in the right alley?' haha! yea, went to check with paul and it's just that i'm early.

finished tat in like 15 mins.. :D

tired after the 'fight'.. haha.. :D

went for dinner after training with dad and mum before i head for kok house. we gave cp a surprise, chanel handbags and that's my intention. it was quite well planned cos i've got brandon to settle all the internal affairs in school. (: it went on smoothly and they use the cake on cp face. it's the usual game la. haha.

went back home at around 1015.

seeing the 2 of u so close there's like nthing much left for me. wo ai de ren, ta yi you le ai ren, chong ta men de yan shen shuo ming le wo bu ke neng... stay happy always...

it's cleared

it's cleared

yesterday was a tiring day, mayb it's tat i didnt had enough sleep. reached home at 2 and woke up at 7 plus. went to bowled the charity bowl by lions club. it's a team event. me cp brandon and kunlong. we were like all bowling damn lousy la. actually not only us. wx they all oso didn't bowl well. haha! the lanes are tough. had lunch der as they provide buffet. cp went to with his family to celebrate his birthday, so i was left alone. rotted at the alley with paul and started talking about someone. i didn't know he tinks that way too. haha!

took a bus down to spgg and i fell aslp on the way there. it's like a bloody 1 hr trip man! haha! luckily i woke up in time if nt i sure miss the stop. waited for kok and he's late!!! so i took a bus down to clementi to grab a bite. the chicken rice was like how pathetic la. i can count the no. of slices la! luckily it's only $2.50 if not i sure make noise. haha! went to get bubble tea, and bubble is at clementi is now $1.50!!!! rahh... not going my way. cos i'm already broke. i didn't know the charity bowl is like $300 per team, which means we have to pay $75 per person for 3 games!! heart pain!! $25/game!!

this thing cost me $1.50 now la! haha!

okay, went back to spgg and bowled with kok and wendy. nt bad, wendy improve already. (; the driller good. oopss.. hahah! went clementi for dinner and headed to kok house and dad came to pick me. had bak ku teh at hm. shiok.. i went to bed like straight after dinner la. and woke up at 10 plus. (:

hey u, tat's right! u! haha! thanks for accompanying me last night! (: and dun be crazy over that jm la, i see him everytime i look into the mirror. hahah! :p anyway, u can't see this till next weekend. (: tc.

jie, hope u r alright already. good that u've ppl to accompany u. if u were to need my company, dun hesitate to give me a call k! (: hugs.

and this is to you, now everything is cleared i think. so that's the thing u ask if cp had told me. there's nthing else i can do now but to wish u all the best. anyway i'll be going ns soon so i hope this won't be bothering me. tc.

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
wo zhi dao gu shi bu hui tai qu zhe
我总会遇见一个什么人
wo zhong hui yu jian yi ge she me ren
陪我过没有了她的人生
pei wo guo mei you le ta de ren sheng
成家立业之类的等等
chen jia li ye zhi lei de deng deng

她做了她觉得对的选择
ta zuo le ta jue de dui de xuan zhe
我只好祝福她真的对了
wo zhi hao zhu fu ta zhen de dui le
爱不到我最想要爱的人
ai bu dao wo zhui xiang yao ai de ren
谁还能要我怎样呢
shui hai neng yao wo zhen yang neh

我爱的人不是我的爱人
wo ai de ren bu shi wo de ai ren
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
ta xin li mei yi chun dou shu yu ling yi ge ren
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
ta zhen xing fu xing fu de zhen can ren
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
rang wo you ai you hen ta de ai zhe me na me shen
我爱的人她已有了爱人
wo ai de ren ta yi you le ai ren
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
cong ta men de yan shen shuo ming le wo bu ke neng
每当听见她或他说「我们」
mei dang ting jian ta huo ta shuo wo men
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
jiu xiang ting jian ai qing yong heng de chao xiao sheng

i'm here for u..

i'll be with you

today was a tiring day, cos i reached home at only 2? david drag me to bowl with him la. and i've to wake up like 8 plus to go training. we bowled like a 6 games series. the top 2 will den proceed into the stepladder. the 'top' 2 came from my lane la! and tat's me and benji. haha! we are really screwed today. ben's screwed by the lanes and i'm screwed by myself. david says i need to change a brain. ): ceddy wins again, third win! congrats. (:

emo-ing in the shop... :x

went lunch and headed back to the shop. it was like how quiet till the time when i was about to leave. i dunno wad happened next.

will tekong look like this?

dad picked me up and we headed for nsrcc, my aunt has a chalet der. we're on our way when my bro called me to buy some orange syrup. mum called too. chanel handbags and was like asking wad to buy. so i was like a bit irritated, so i just said, 'aiya i buy the whole NTUC over la!' hahah! so bad. hahah! played mj at the chalet. i made like how big la, but nv game, ): win 5 bucks, but mum took it. when bowling with my cousins and i was suppose to teach them. i can't believe gary was like how serious la! i like! haha! joey falls asleep in the alley cos she was too young to bowl. haha! damn cute!

she is so cute!!

bowled like 2 games and we stopped. send ah ma and ah gong home and here i am! (:

you said you will treat her well when i hand her to you, and now this. so wad's your explanation!?

emokid

emotions

a sudden rush of emotions. jie so nice. she doesn't want a pressie from me, want me to save the money for myself to enjoy before ns. so touched. but no worries, i can manage! (: jie has been damn nice to me, got me a watch for my bday, and i can't think of anything for her... ):

thinking about it, there's nothing that i can spent money on. it's either at the proshop or bowling. so why do i need money? i suddenly feel tat i need ppl. i need ppl who are really willing to spent time with me. david always say, go down and work la, oso nobody date u. thinking thru it, it's quite true. i've been asking someone out but it's always in vain. true enough, there's like nthing much for me to do. when's the last time i step into a theatre? when's the last time i walk around in shopping centres? seriously, louis vuitton handbags can't recall. think back, the number of shows that i've watched my whole life is not even the no. of shows kok can watch in a month! i used to have jie to watch with me, but since she's with teh lan, she'll most probably watch it with him. i understand. i oso paiseh to ask her to watch with me la. mum gave me complimentary tickets, and i sold it.

sorry ppl that i'm emo-ing... but... ya.. good night world.. (:

plaza park royal

chocolate

today is full of chocolates... woke up at 8 plus and rotted on the bed till like 2? haha! mummy bought zhui kuay for me as breakfast. i ate at 11 plus before i went to slp again. meeting shereen at 5 to shop for jie pressie before we head for plaza park royal for our buffet dinner. so i didn't take lunch. only tool a yan yan, chocolate flavour. went to bugis and while i was waiting for shereen, there's this fountain at bugis filled with kids, drenched. they're having fun, at a shopping centre, wad a place to play with water. haha! i wonder how r they going to get home all wet? hahaha.

they are definitely enjoying themselves :D

so met them at the macs which i went to get an apple pie before i got gastric problem again. (: we walked to the hotel... and guess wad, i'm like complaining the whole journey der la, cos i wanted to take a cab down. haha! i wasn't that far though. haha!

we had a super full dinner. ate tempura ebi, pineapple rice, sweet & sour pork, ginger chicken, egg prata, durian prata (it's like how strong la), cakes and the CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!! haha! i took like alot la... haha! din manage to get a cake der. ): jie suggested to play mahjong so we took her car to her house cos she wanted to change before we head down to my house! hehe. mun ting was so nice that she created a slideshow for jie and even bought a cake all the way to my house! (: so nice of her! (: guess wad's the cake?!? CHOCOLATE AGAIN! haha! i'm going to avoid that for like a week man! haha!

jie & me :)

cool right! outside the restroom.. :x

faizal took like all my vitasoy la! haha! din't win at first but near the end i game a big one! win $8. hehe! oh ya, i got so irritated by ppl on the train lo. they didnt do anything wrong, but i was just super irritated by the noise. chanel handbags there's 3 malay guys talking like quite loudly and i dun understand a single word they say. plus one of them has irritating laughter! argg.. and there's like 2 pandas speaking loudly lo, i just got pissed by tat. pms la me. haha!

jie - hope u had fun today, i'll get u a pressie i promise. (: i know u waiting for me to sing ya a song!! haha.. get prepared for it! (: hugs.

happy birthday mummy & jie...

beloved birthday girls

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY & JIE!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to mummy
happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to jie jie

happy birthday to you

today is the birthday of mummy and jie jie. all the best to the 2 of them! love ya lots! (:

mummy - this song is for you...

妈妈

那年还没长大
常常让你牵挂
是我不好你担心了吧
懵懂很不听话
也曾顶嘴吵架
我的脾气你没办法
你一个人沉默撑着家
任岁月在你额头刻划
你说爱是唯一的解答
那皱纹是代价
斑白的发是惩罚
妈妈辛苦为家
你别再让泪流下
我会照顾这个家
亲爱的妈妈
休息你辛苦了

没想过天会塌
总要你等一下
有谁多晚都等我回家
伤了你的气话
无意说的谎话
你都微笑说算了吧

我知道你累
现在换我来背
我一定不让你后悔
我让未来很美
亲爱的妈妈
请别再流下眼泪

你真是辛苦了
妈妈妈妈
你不用哭了
妈妈妈妈
不要再哭了

jie - here's your song... i can sing it to you when having dinner... (:

and u! yes u! something just came to mind before i fall asleep just now. and this is for u... LOVE TO LEARN like how you LEARN TO LOVE...

superstar

superstar

when the road you're on
seem to be so long
you must carry on
you're not alone

when all hope is gone
everything seems wrong
don't be put upon
i am here for you

when you've nowhere to turn to
and no one to run to
i'll always be there by your side
i'll turn night into day
i'll keep dragons at bay
i'll do magic to turn wrong to right

i'll be your superstar
i'll be your light at the end of the tunnel
no matter how far or how high the bar
i will come flying thru barriers and hurdles

to be your superstar
i'll be your knight and your guardian angel
no matter how hard the obstacles are
now and forever
i'll be your superstar

omg, can't believe i'm posting this song again. and i've watched it 5 times? haha! damn nice la. SP SUPERSTAR MUSICAL! haha! i went bowling like twice today la. still can't get the right feel. but i tink there's something that i'll need to try. i'll just have to bowl a few more times and i'll be able to get it. (: impossible is nothin'. (: oh guess wad, i downloaded kong kong again!! to play with audrey!! haha! omg, damn lame la... audition doesn't like my com, so no choice. and i installed warcraft cos i found the original cd i bought like 4 yrs ago? haha! today is jie's bday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!!!!

i'll be seeing u tmr!!! hope u'll be super happy tmr! haha!! take care!!! hugs!!

hey u! u! u! u! dun look elsewhere! it's u! haha! a lame way to address this to you! haha. okay be serious. haha! try to THINK AND BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL DO IT!

it's getting smaller

it's diminishing...

it has been quite a boring day. i woke up like how early can. played warcraft for a while, and ppl can u believe it tat i play warcraft?!? haha! went out to eat lunch and i walk one big round just for a cup of bubble tea. hehe. chanel handbags came back and rot awhile before i head for bukit batok csc. went to bowl alone.. it's too expensive for me to travel down to meet ian (seow) to bowl, and also too ex for him to travel to westwood. so yea..

someone said i didn't have a gf cos i dun go out and socialise. when i'm free i'm stuck with bowling. so sad can. but who want to socialise with me on such a day. ppl are working and the guys are in camp already!! hahah!

that's him

oh ya, my neighbours' cat is like damn cute la. he was like sun-tanning when i was going for my lunch la. hahha! the corridor was like in shade only one part with sun. and he was lying down der la. hahah!

it's getting clearer

it's getting clearer

yesterday was my working day again. did 2 recon but got no sales. i was like damn tiring to do recon cos the spinning machine is place at a corner on the floor, and i have to sit on a ball to do the recon. after 2 balls my back and ass hurts. ): and i seriously think i'll need to bring a bottle of moisturizer down, cos the coverstock of the balls are making my hand super dry after i do the recon. my skin start to split already, partly becos of my bowling. i applied skin patch and i use puff ball, so it's like how dry. no choice.

close shop at 10 and took a cab down to spgg to pick david up and went westbowl. not bad the alley, chanel handbags but it's not well maintain cos the approach is like how dirty and there's like no backend. the staff, omg, attitude sia. if i were to be the GM i sure SACK SACK SACK! haha! bowled like 3 games and went off walking round the club. that place can't even take a cab la, super ulu although it's like right beside AYE. took 197 to jurong and change cab down to plaza bowl to look for uncle denny, and so nice, we reached there they are going for supper, so finally i got food! haha! had like porridge with 6 dishes. but me and david was like not enough, so we ordered AGAIN. haha! came back at ard 230.

was suppose to play kong kong with audrey la. haha. nvm today den play with u the lame game. hahah!

/edit oh ya, the stupid Ian (seow) make me bring my bowling balls down to the shop for nothing.. say wanna come in the end ps me!! arg!!! nvm la! luckily i bring those ball that i need to do something to down. haha. so smart! hehe. :D

screwed

screwed

CATS test today at SICC, i can't believe i actually screwed it. i put shot everywhere. especially the first game. i actually had 1 thumb stuck shot which sends the ball far out and 2 drop ball shot which makes the ball goes right. my freaking target range is like 5.0!!! omg, can u believe it. second game was a bit better, 3.1. but there's something wrong with my timing today and i can't get it back on track even though i just went to practise. ): i need to do something about it before my next training. pls dun demote me... ):

my bracelet.. :)

had lunch with anthea and audrey after cats. i'm suppose to meet anthea so that i can get my bracelet. so nice... :) and audrey came along which is good... brighten up my day with wayne.. haha. oopss.. sorry drey. haha. she poured water on me la, cos i dun allow her to put salt into my drink and i attempt to pour it into hers. haha! luckily i'm quick enough to dodge it. haha. chanel handbags went home after lunch and played audition. i'm being owned by everyone. haha. tried my warcraft and i suck at it once again. ): not fated to play games la. haha!

went to bowl with ray and edmund was der. he was like using the motorola la. nice. but i dun really like motorola. i still want the E65... ): going to work tmr and ian's coming over after training. (:

thoughts

thinking into future

had been thinking quite a bit these days, mayb it's becos i'm going to serve ns soon. had thinking negatively usually, but this time round, it's the opposite. i'm starting to think about my future, what am i going to do after i serve my ns? what if i can't get into university? what other things can i do during my uni days? and etc...

i dun wan to be one who keeps hanging around doing nothing. as ppl say, a grown up should have some plans for future. we cannot be happy with present and keep on stepping on the same spot. louis vuitton handbags we have to move on; before it's too late. one can't be relying on their parents forever. one day, they'll be gone. one won't be just supporting themselves for ever, they'll have to support a spouse and a family. life is not about oneself, it's about ppl around them too.

i need to do something about my life too.. i dun think i'm those that would be satisfy being an employee and work for ppl. tat's rather stupid cos the employer is getting all the benefits from the business and u are only doing the 'sai gang'. you're seeing the money coming in, but it's not for u. worth it? another alternative is to go into my field of studies. good money, but... no day no night. tat's so not me.

bowling? it's a hobby and a goal. but as a career, it mayb a bit risky. more and more coaches around, more and more proshops and the most scary, less and less alleys.

what can i start with den...

my ball!!!

peaceful to piss-ful

it was a peaceful morning and i went training. and we had fun cos we bowled a mini tournament whereby each of us will bowl a 4 game series and we are fined 50cents for each open frame. chanel handbags the top 6 will then proceed into the stepladder. i finished 2nd after the 4 games la, but then the day turned pissful after my practice shot at lane 19 20. i threw like only 1 practice shot and my nitro got stuck. i waited till like the 1st match is over before i get my ball back la. and this is how it looks like when it came back...

my poor nitro...

i was like damn pissed la when that ass still say it's our fault. say we know ball stuck we should not throw anymore. but who the fuck knows the ball is stuck before they threw the next shot, hello it's practice throws. fuck.

went down to the shop and was like how busy. david pms, so we stayed till like midnight before we head for geylang for supper. david say the kuay chap was nice, but, disappointed sia. my house one better la! they didn't wanted to let me go back when i was like super tired la. went back at around 2 plus. slept my way thru in the cab and the uncle pissed me off again. he shouted at me la, say dun slp already! pissful dayyy....

dou huaa...

only bowling balls

slept till 12 today, was like so reluctant to wake up. and david woke my up, asking me to go help him at the shop. went down at like 3 and work non stop till dinner. cos eugene came to drill all his ball. david was like so lazy la. chanel handbags he's suppose to do it for him but in the end i'm the one drilling while he continue with his freecell and hearts and spider solitare or wadever. haha.

this uncle pissed me off, he was like taking 2 super old and scractch ball in and asking this and tat. the worst thing is, he wants to recon tat stupid ball la. hate it! can't he just ball a new ball when the other 2 is like cmi already! fuck.

but i finally got to eat my dou hua today. we waited for this cust who called and ask if we were able to stay for awhile cos he's coming to buy ball. and for the sake for the $400 sales, we stayed. went geylang for the dou hua before we head home. super tired now and training is at 10am tmr.

hope u had a nice day, good night! (:

at work

at work

the amount of ball to do... ):

phew, finally i can sit down and rest while having my dinner. i've been busy since the moment i step into the shop. drilled a ball, cut all the replugging, recon a ball and do the replugging. non stop. and at the mean time, a dunearn boy came down to buy a package, so spent some time entertaining him. i'm the best man, there is this tin of paint in the shop which we used to paint the drilling machine. guess wad, i accidentally whack the tin and it dropped directly into the rubbish bin la! haha! so pro can, luckily not much damange. haha! now i have throw away the whole rubbish bin. haha. luckily there were sales today, if nt i'll be called a jinx. haha!

how pro can i be.. haha...

alright, i better eat my food and continue to do up the stuffs...

i better have more things to do before i start to anyhow think. it's not that i'm an emo person, u need to put in feelings to be emo can! haha! it's just that i'm disappointed... i think any other human who were to put in the effort and feelings will feel it this way too...

busy busy busy...

looking ahead

there's seriously a mistake la.. i receive my sports awards!! COLORS GOLD!! but... they definitely put the wrong sport la... BODY BUILDING!?!?! omg!!! how can i ever get a sports award for body building man!! haha!

my sports award certificate... body building!! haha!

a busy busy day ahead. woke up early to do up the drilling chart and the brochure. have to go do photocopying later before i go down to the shop in the afternoon.

my job...

what i have to do later: -

1. cut all the plugging
2. polish up all plugging
3. complete undone plugging
4. drill a ball
5. recondition a ball

it seem to be a short list, but... there's like 12 balls lying around!! OMG!! will be dead tired today. i'm getting hungry already. seems like there's a little bit of crave for bubble tea now.. haha. i shall tahan till lunch. and i'll take a brunch! (: stupid james went thailand leaving me alone in the shop, if not he can do the sai kang for me!! haha! enjoy ur trip james. haha! alright i've got to go and prepare everything, will blog more later or tonight. (:

have a great day ahead...

trainin and trainin...

nthing's new

i'm left with 1 month...

the usual, woke up at 9plus, 10 plus and officially at 1. haha. was like lazing on the bed snoozing. haha. dunno is i damn suay or wad la, got all the suay things today.chanel handbags went to eat kuay chap for lunch, and i told the auntie i only want the egg, the tofu and the meat. but... she serve me with the intestines!!! in the end i only ate like kuay with egg. arggg... waste my money, luckily it's only $2.5o.

took train to training. so i found this sit and tht can sleep to raffles place, but... the guy came sit beside me stinks!!! the ncc guy in the uniform like filled with the sweat smell la. haha. i gangster, i stood up and walk off. in order not to make him paiseh, i pretend to be alighting. haha.

training was as usual, left there to bowl for 2 hours and go back. went dinner with ceddy, jolin, nana and steffi. didn't feel like going home straight so ask raymond out to bowl. didn't expect him to come too. haha. just reached hm and my shoulders are aching.

dun tell me to be optimistic, i am already, but i'm just facing the fact tat... no it's not for me...

back at work

back to work.

woke up at 11 plus and went to meet david at IMM for lunch. we were like going shopping in daiso la. it's like wadever we see we were thinking if we can get it for the shop ornot. chanel handbags haha. went chevrons to collect some ball and flew back to the shop cos a customer was waiting der.

eugene came down with like 12 balls and i've to plug most of them. super tiring. chiew pang came at 8 to accompany me, wanted to bowl but didn't have lanes for him. too bad.. haha. went to uncle adam's mum wake after work.

i totally forgotten that i've to go down to the wake tonight, and i'm in red!! omg... so paiseh.. hope the family dun mind. (:

came home with david and i nearly puke man, the cab stinks... ):

will she one day accept my love, will she tink i'll be good enough...

guess it's not for me, no it's not for me....

i really think my chances are slim... how i wish my chances are like helmi... ):

back at training...

back to training today...

slept till like 11? training at 4. super tiring. once again, it's 2hrs of continuous bowling by myself. ): went to marine bowl with wx and mark cos they want to do bowl. had macs der and started rotting till like 8 and went to meet chiew pang and audrey in town!

there's like nthing much to do la.. ate again, had long john tis time. i bought cheese for my fries and chiew pang can get smarter den tat... here goes the conversation...

Audrey: the cheese can ask for more one ornot?
Me: must pay one cannot la... u think pepsi meh!!!
CP: huh? Pepsi can ask for more ar?!?
*pepsi slogan is 'ASK FOR MORE'

hahaha... we can't help luffing la.. haha.. sent audrey and cp home and i'm home.. super tired.

1st SSS U18 International Championships

i'm back after a long disappearance.

last one week was the 1st SSS U18 tournament, and i've been there thru' out the whole tournament. was actually scheduled to work as the Laison Officer, but was told that they dun need me and mich a week before the tournament cos they've hired larry from malaysia. but i went down even though i'm not working cos i'll be doing nothing anyway, so might as well go down and support her. but doesn't seems to help either.

oh ya, the first day was actually the official practise, so i dunno wad i can do la. haha. second day i was der thru out and something happened. so mike ask me to help him as the chief lane marshall so that the same situation wouldn't happen. i accepted it cos it's better than doing nothing.

wei xiang shot a Perfect Game on the last day of the qualifying, and it's the first game of that day!! haha! CONGRATS WEI XIANG! (: i was like behind since his first strike la. haha! the event ended on friday after prize presentation at the poolside. Mark came in 3rd after losing at the stepladder to IT. haha! Congrats Mark! (: everyone wasn't sure where to go after tat, chanel handbags finally after a long long drag, decided to go ktv! haha! dinner at burger king and went over to party world at cuppage plaza. ppl went were... cp, kun long, pom, anthea, audrey, thai guy (forget his name) oops. and me. haha! i feel rather old though. haha. we had emo sessions la. ended at 11 plus and send pom to basil house and cp home.

training next morning at victor's. 10am.

went to cut my hair after training. everyone didn't notice i got my hair cut la! waste of money. went home to get my stuffs and headed for sentosa, one degree 15! a yacht club! CP having his bday party on a YACHT!! YES! u didn't see wrongly! that's like how fun! though there was nthing much to do there, it's a great place for emo-sation. haha! rotting on the boat till dinner. went to watch the musical fountain and it's nt really tat nice la. oh ya, and we squeeze in the car to get there, 6 ppl at the back sits.. haha.. shaun was like on my lap and anthea was like pulling my leg hair la!! haha! went back and i get to my emo place, listening to music and charging my phone. the last time before i fall asleep i saw my watch, it was like 230am. but i was woke up by cp at 3 la!! omg, i tht i slept for sometime already but it's only half an hour! started cai quan so that someone would drink the absolute vodka la. i did a good mix with peach tea and 7up and audrey just can't stop drinking. haha!! cp can't mix! haha! and he can't drink. he was like cannot stand straight at all la. haha! they went to catch the sunrise without me... ):

woke up and rot till 'brunch' which cp's mum ordered. it's super ex. a plate of fries, a plate of nuggets, a plate of sausage and a plate of prawn fitters cost like $170!!! and the plate of sausage is like $75? vincent just attack that. haha! left the boat and went on ktv at the club!! everyone is like damn tired la... hahha..bas pom and edlyn came back. but they didn't sing la. bas falls aslp too. haha

dinner at vivo carl's jr. bas can eat man! we are like the first to finish la. haha. walked ard and headed to cp house cos he wanted to bowl. so went to watch him bowl till like 11 plus before i get home. fell aslp real soon....

oh ya, jazzy hit a perfect game at SSC 2 days ago!! CONGRATS JAZZY!! a piece of land in london.. haha! (:

i didn't talk to her though i saw her everyday the whole week. i dunno how to start, and i've got a bad feeling... she's like so close to so many others. she's like smiling while sms-ing... i dunno... guess it's not for me... suddenly a urge to ask....

Superstar

When the road you're on
Seems to be so long
You must carry on
You're not alone

When all hope is gone
Everything seems wrong
Don't feel put upon
I am here for you

When you've nowhere to turn to
And no one to run to
I'll always be there by your side.
I'll turn night into day
I'll keep dragons at bay
I'll do magic to turn wrong to right

I'll be your superstar
I'll be your light at the end of the tunnel
No matter how far or how high the bar
I will come flying thru' barriers and hurdles

To be your superstar
I'll be your knight and your guardian angel
No matter how hard the obstacles are
Now and forever,
I'm your superstar

When the night is dark
And the odds are stark
You must still take heart
I'll be here for you

When you've nothing to cling to
And no one to love you
I'll always be there by your side
I'll still find a way
I'll make all things okay
Walk on water to turn back the tide

Guess it's not for me...

Will she one day accept my love?

Will she think i'll be good enough?

See her thru' thick and thin

Thru' the good times and the bad

Now that he's gone and changed his mind

Now that he's left her heart behind

Can i just let her know that i'm here for her instead?

But it's not for me, it'll bever be

Why she even knows that i exist is laughable

Girls like her, i know deserve the best

A girl like her is not like all the rest

Guys like me won't pass the test, No, it's not for me.

No, it's not for me, it's just a fantasy

Will she ever feel for me the way i feel for her?

Heart beat faster when i hear her name

Start to stutter; things won't be the same

Stop! This day dream is insane!

Oh no, its not for me

No, it's not for me,

Guess it's not for me...