pain

u are surrounded by the great wall of china, and guards are shooting arrows at me which prevent me from taking over u.....

now i'm dead.....

zhe yi fen jian chi

This useless guy here got nothing to say.... there shouldn't be something call jian chi....

starting afresh

to get over the past may seem difficult, in reality, it is difficult. why not look from another point of view. starting afresh might not be as difficult. who says that one need to get over the past to start afresh, there can be a swop in timing.

"the best way to get over is to start afresh"

- tiacpin 24 dec 2005

be brave, no worries... i'll be with u.... start afresh to get over the past.....

for u...

"a million girls; a thousand's caring; a hundred's pretty; ten understanding; but only one YOU...."

down... 3 in a row...

tht this time round i'll be able to go out with u... it is just a dreamm....

the hopes on saturday and sunday.....

the light of today....

all blocked by that piece of door....

went school to do up the computer that has no OS. well prepared, but everything is in vain when the cd-rom drive is spoilt. did up the accounts of the club. watched the training and went for dinner.... suddenly all excitements are gone.

always wonder why i wouldn't be able to have an outing with ya.

super unlucky in love....

no one loves you while the one you love doesn't love you......

it is proven. haiz.....

lonely lonely and more lonely. as the day draws to an end, the loniless overwhelm me............... home alone for christmas? pathetic.... haiz..........

santa santa...

we wish u a merry christmas and a happy new year.. hehe. christmas is just round the corner. it is already filled with the christmas atmosphere. haven been sending christmas cards and all. but i'm looking for a special thing that i can get...

when will a christmas wish come true. it has nv come true in my life. my wish is so simple, but... haiz. i'm still yet a good bowler, still yet won a title, yet won the heart of the person whom occupy my heart. my world is still lack of her. wth. i think wad i wish has always been a day dream. looking forward to that day, but that day has nv drawn near. always at the border. efforts put in goes down the drain. lao tian nong ren. chanel handbags i've nv been a good guy as i got a jian zhui ba, that's why lao tian zai chu fa wo. hello lao tian, jiu suan wu gong ye you lao rite. haiz. every festival shows how lonely i am. frens getting to go out with their love ones and plus now even more unattached are attached, leaving me alone, staying at hm counting the stars in the sky and thinking why am i the one.

surrounded by the four walls, onli reflection of myself... so scary, so qi liang.....

so extra

rather draggy day today. presentation starts at 9 and ended at 10. being ps by eugene, he went to meet eleannor for breakfast... rotted till 1 for the gems test. the test was rather short, ended in ard 20 mins time. rotted again before the christmas party at spgg for the student leaders started.

not a good feeling... rather an extra...

14th again...

hmm 13th dec, a rather relax day, but went to sch earlier as usual to have breakfast with er they all at mac. hmm, studied blaw during the free time b4 lesson commerce. boring as usual, went home after school lo....

14th again.... every month tis time is a time that i tink alot... although a blog is suppose to be a place where one can writes all his thoughts in, but somethings just have to be kept to myself. thinking again and again. words are like pouring water, unable to take back. everything will be different once 'the floor is wet'. one might fall. but still hoping that it would become fantasy island where there is fun.

long day in sch...

long long day in sch, from 9-10. but it is worth the time. happy. dunno why, not having good appetite these days. will feel hungry, but doesn't ate as much as usual. completed the MA today, was a relief after all, although we didn't done well, but at least it is off the mind le. completed my fmkt presentation slides le, now left with the BLAW ca. need to do some reading, not having good memory either. DS may seems zhen jing at times, but he has another jia zhen jing side. hahaha. break is round the corner, and i tink i need it. u need it too rite, and hopefully by then i'm prepared for the next round. haha.

long but great day. good time flies....

thanks jie...

a happy day... happiest day of the whole week. rather relax den the usual days. went for lunch with ah kok b4 he went to meet his gf coz today is her bday. Happy Birthday Wendy! ah ya, i meet my dear jie for movie, PRIME. a rather funny show but.. there's alwaes a but to everything. hahah. but, the ending is like so sudden. are the together in the end? or wad? blurred. anyway, louis vuitton handbags went to shop, window shop b4 we had dinner at NYDC. her fren is working der and gave us a lemon shiver each. THANKIEW! den the real shopping begins. jie spent alot today. a gift from her!!! hahaha. was quite paiseh as it is rather ex. hmm. thank u jie! *loves*

went to meet estelle after that to pass her her long awaited bday present. hope u like it ger. anyway, this is the first time we met after the motorshow yea. hahaha. u so tall, make me seems so vulnerable. hahaha.

a sudden tht by pass me... is eugene and cat's evil doing coming thru???

i hate this feelings

everything is not right. my mind is like jigsaw puzzle, a scattered one. every piece of it is not in place, i can't find the corners which allows me to start putting the pieces together again. i need the whole picture, if not i'll be hanging in the middle of no where. i need a rest, i really need a rest, not really physical rest, but mental rest. pls let my mind rest. i believe some quiet moments will let the mind understand the picture.

was so shock to hear the way of the reply. scattered.......

post POL-ITE

all hopes dashed. all hopes of my teammates are dashed, the doubles and the team event. it was me that dashed the hopes. i wanted to do well, wanted to much tat i've got nothing. sorry. it's lynal and edmund's last year for the POL-ITE and i think they wanted a medal badly. if i had bowled a 200 avg that day, chanel handbags we've got a medal. i wasn't that diff, but i didn't managed to get it. and in fact, i bowled the worst in the whole SP team. a 171 avg? tat's like wth. haiz. i hope the reserves dun blame me. hope that they dun tink that i'm that lousy that they shld be the one bowling instead. haiz. next month there will be this inter-varsity tournament where all the polytechnics are being invited. i dunno who uncle adam will pick, but i wish that i'll still be in the team and win a medal to compensate to lynal and edmund with it.

pre POL-ITE

went school with 4 balls today, and i look like an idiot. wad to do, got trainin at 1. actually didnt wan to go for the first lecture, but the tht of seeing u makes me decide to go for that lecture. heheh =p. anyway, got to know the lineups for tmr games le. and luckily i'm in the first team with the expected teammates. uncle denny called me today, ask how i bowl in the NY selection and all. He told me must be like him, haven bowl already say wan to and will win the medal. and he even said good luck to me. oh my god, i'm going to buy 4D man. hahaha. i wan to win a medal, it will be a break thru for me....

jie won the bronze medal in the team event for SEA games today. CONGRATS JIE!!!! come back must treat me go eat... wahahhaa.